You Finally Noticed

XV. Completely Different

I took my glasses away from my eyes.

The longer it's not in my eyes, the more my sight gets blur.

I cant see things clearly now. The world I can see seems to be erased for a moment. Im not blind but it's hard to recognize and observe things around me.

My eyes were open but I just cant see anything.

My mom said that I was born like this. She does'nt want me to be born and to live at that time so she tried to take pills and different medicines against giving birth and to remove me from her belly.

It was her fault. She said it was her fault why I have a poor eyesight until now. She thinks it was from the effects of medicine she took when I was still inside her and she's regretting why she did that.

By the way, me and my mom were having a good terms now. It started by the time she apologized to me when I was really depressed, when I was half alive.

We talked and confessed things at each other but I did'nt mention about Wonwoo and everything that happened.

It was hard. Im having a hard time forgiving her but she did'nt quit in claiming me back.

She changed a lot and I like that. Were starting over again. The part I like the most is when she's doing things she did'nt have the chance to do before. She's really making up to me.

We also decided that we'll let my father go back at his real wife. My mom realized that being a second wife and having an affair with him would just complicate things. I've suffer enough for that situation and I was thinking also about the real children of my father. They deserve to have their father back. We have completely no right to keep him 'cause my mom and him were not even married.

All of it wents good. We are all in peace now. No more fights and loud arguments.

Im happy in that way.

I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in, mom." I said, knowing it was her.

"Are you sure about this dear?" She asked and I feel like she took a seat beside me.

"Yes, mom. I have decided that I've been living my whole life depending on my glasses but now I want to make a change." I said, keeping my eyes straight at where Im looking.

"Okay. If you say so...I'll support you in your choice." She said.

I smiled.

"I know it will be unusual for you starting now but you'll get used to it." She reminded me and I felt she placed something in my table.

My mom start to put the contact lens in my right eye. I was completely unaware of what it feels like so I blink several times while she's doing that. My eyes become also teary by the uncomfortable contact.

It was a RGP (rigid gas permeable) contact lenses. Also known as GP contact lenses or Gas Permeable. It allow more oxygen to reach the cornea than most soft contact lenses so it provides better vision and durability. It was also prescribed by an optician.

She put the other one in my left eye. I feel the same like how it is placed in the other side but I somehow knows how to adjust this time.

I blinked a lot of times, feeling new with this whole thing.

It seems like I woke up with the new world. It does'nt seems like my world before.

I feel completely different.

"Oh dear..." I saw the bright smile my mom is wearing in front of the mirror I'm facing.

I smiled also as I stare at my eyes. It is clear with no signs of blurriness.