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Chapter 31

~Harmony's POV~

*1 month later*

"I really have to leave." he says

"2 and a half weeks." i say and shake my head

"I'll be back before you know it." he says

"I know, but I'm gonna miss you." i say and pout

"Awww, come on. Stop. You don't play fair." he says

I fold my arms across my chest and pout.

"Stop." he says

I don't say anything, I just sit there.

"I love you." he says "I have to go. Can I have a kiss before I go?" he asks

I look at him and don't respond.

He kisses my neck.

"Stop it."i whine playfully

"Nope. You asked for it."he says

"What!?!?! I didn't do anything."i say

"All I wanted was kiss." he says

I kiss him on the cheek and tell him he can leave.

"No, that's not what I wanted." he says

"Well, I don't know what to tell you anymore." i say

"Harmony, give me a kiss so I can leave." he says aggressively

I give him a kiss and he tries to take it further than that, but I stop him.

You have to catch a plane." i say "Most likely, they won't wait for you forever."

"You right." he says and gets up to leave.

He goes into Christien's room and picks him up. He kisses him on the cheek, and places Chris in my arms and leaves.

"So, what are we gonna do now?" i ask christien

He just looks at me and makes noises.

I decided to have a small get together.

I called alise, shanya, janine, and they all said they would come, so I ordered pizza, hot wings, and soda.

My phone rings.

"Hello!?" i say

"Harmony, I messed up, I messed up really bad." jullian says and i become confused

"What happened?" i ask

"I lost the best thing I ever had. I took you for granted and now nothing is the same. You're married to an asshole, you're a mother, and now we're just "friends". I hate that I ever hit you, or any of that other bullshit. Whenever I'm around you, I start to hate myself because I was such a jackass." he sighs and continues "Harmony, I just want you to know that I love you, and I have to say goodbye."

I start to panic. I get my car keys and Christien and leave.

When I pull up to his house. I run up to his door with christien and knock franctically.

He doesn't answer.

I remember where he hid his spare key and unlocked the door. I look all over the house for him. Finally I find him in the master bathroom, in the tube under the water.

I struggle to pull him out and I begin to panic again, then I remember what I learned in a CPR class, and I start the technique.

"Breathe damnit breathe." i say as i become frustrated and tears begin to flood my vision

He starts coughing and spitting out water.

I pull him close to me just sit there and hold him.

"Jullian, why? Why would you try to do this to yourself?" i ask him

"Because, life without the woman I love the most, isn't worth living."he says

"Jullian, listen to me." i start "If we're supposed to be together, then we'll be together, but thr way I see it, you will find the peson you're looking for!" i say

"I was looking for you, then when I found you, I did you wrong on so many levels." he says."And through it all, you forgave me, and I still didn't see how poorly I was treating this angel that I was sent." he says and tears flood down my face

"Jullian, I loved you and I still love you, but now it's a different kind of love. Then it was the type of love you have for someone that you want to love you back, but now it's the kind of love you have for someone that has helped you realize a lot of stuff about yourself. And to be completely honest, the love you have for me, is the love you have for someone you can't have." i say

"I know, but-" he starts and I cut him off

"Jullian, all I want now is your friendship, because we jumped into everything so soon before, and now we're finally getting to know and understand each other so our friendship is different than it could've ever been." i say

"You're right." he says

"Just promise me something." i say

"What's that?" he asks

"Promise me, you'll never get this upset and you'll never pull any dumb shit like this ever again" i say sturnly

"Yes ma'am. I promise, I'll never do it again!" he says

I kiss his cheek and tell him to change his clothes and pack a bag.

He does what I tell him, without questions and I strap Christien back into the car and we go back to my house.

I feel like I should watch him for a few days, especially since this is somewhat my fault.

When we get back to my house, we set up and wait for the pizza guy and just watch movies, listen to music, and drink until we fall asleep.