I Want To Change The world

15

I got dressed and made my way to join the volley ball game Tobi smiled at me, I forced a smile back and stared at the ground. I found my spot in the back and waited until the ball was hit towards me.

I wonder if anyone will truly miss me when I'm gone. I wonder if I should have even gotten so close to these people now, I wonder how hurt they will feel when I'm gone. It makes me wish I was never even born.

"Deidara!" Hidan yelled at me, I watched as the ball fell to the ground right in front of me. I totally could have gotten it. I looked over him and mouthed a sorry, he just nodded.

I moved up to the net when everyone else moved, I wasn't paying attention I'm lost I wonder if I was ever really found anyway. All my life I've been moving down this conveyor belt people picking on me when they see something wrong and then trying to put me back into place when they think I'm fixed just to be brought back to do same thing later.

The ball came crashing down in front of me again, I shrugged it off as did everyone else. Until it happened again, and again.

"Deidara!" Kisame yelled he moved over to my side and got in my face, the nervous feeling I usually felt when he was around wasn't there. I feel nothing, I don't even care if I get punched right now.

Kisame grabbed my shoulders and yelled at me, I just stared at him as did everyone else. "Are you going to play! At least do something or get off the court you're ruining the game" Kisame finished, no one disagreeing with him. Not one person.

I stared at him I wonder myself where I am at times, why do I even exist? "Hey!" Kisame yelled, I blinked but that was all next thing I knew I was on the ground Kisame had pushed me. Something in me, just kind of snapped.

I quickly got up and pushed him back, he fell down and landed with a loud thump he quickly got up and walked over to me. I got in his face.

"I'm a person! I have feelings and I matter in this world, I have plans for my life!" I took a deep breathe my mind was spinning. Why am I even saying these things? Everyone in the gym was silent all eyes on us.

"You think I don't remember what you did to me! You think I just forgot and moved on?" I pushed him again his feet moving backward but managing to stay up right. His eyes were wide open, face red. I turned my attention to Yahiko. "You think I just forgave you?"

"Deidara" Kisame gritted through his clenched teeth. A warning.

"Do you have any idea what you did to me!" I felt my chest burn my eyes watering. "I hate you, I hate your presence, I hate your face. I hate how you look at me like I'm nothing, you punch me like I'm some kind of bag of dirt" I turned away from him moving my hands to my hair and wiping my eyes.

Yahiko started to walk towards me but stopped when I glared at him, he slowly backed up but not much. "You walk around like you own the school, like no one else matters. What gives you the right? Who gave you the power to hurt others and not get punished. Do you even feel bad?"

Kisame walked towards me and grabbed my arm, I pushed him away and slapped him in the face, "You fucking asshole!" Kisame yelled.

"What do you think happens when the kids you bully go home? What do they tell their parents when they come home from school with a black eye! How humiliating do you think it is to tell your parents you get kicked just for being yourself!"

"This whole school is disgusting! It's nothing but a place for athletes to throw around who ever they want and not get punished." I walked towards Kisame he was holding himself back "I hate you with everything in me, the day will come when you get what you deserve" I hissed at him my voice has never not sounded like me until that moment.

"Stay away from me!" I yelled and walked out of the room slamming the door shut I got changed walked out of the locker room and straight to the art room. I'll stay in there for the rest of the day.