Life Unexpected (Naughty Addiction's Part2)

Chapter 11

Lexi

Dylan and I talked into the night, he showed me his softer side and I could feel how vulnerable he was; sharing his dreams and worst fears. He believes we are soul mates and said he is scared out of his mind that someone or something will come between us. I sensed that he was referring to Tripp and I did my best to reassure him that Tripp is a distant memory. I could tell that he wasn't convinced because he didn't respond with words, instead he hugged me closer to him. Lately, I've been experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions; with everything that's been happening, so I can only imagine how Dylan must be feeling. It can't be easy for him, especially now that Tripp is back in the picture. I keep thinking about what Parker said and that maybe he's right. Maybe Dylan isn't ok with Tripp coming around, he probably just agreed with it because he didn't want to upset me or stress me out. I need to make things right again, I don't want Dylan to doubt his feelings for me or believe that Tripp will somehow come between us.

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It's Saturday, Leanne and Parker are coming over, we finally found time to plan the baby shower and as excited as I am, I'm feeling a little stressed out about the whole thing. How am I supposed to concentrate on planning a shower when I can't stop thinking about how to fix things with Dylan.

"Hey, I'm going to take a quick shower." He tells me.

"Sure, do you want me to join you?"

"That's ok, I know your cousin will be here soon and I'm sure your anxious to start planning the shower together."

Wrong. Right now, all I want is for him to hold me. I want to hit pause; rewind to this morning when I woke up in his arms and forget about everything else. We have plenty of time to plan for the shower, why does it have to be today? Grabbing a towel from the closet, I hand it to him. He pulls me in close and presses his lips to mine. I don't want this moment to end, I want to stay like this forever. He smiles at me before closing the door, I stand there for a moment; feeling apprehensive. A few minutes later, Leanne and Parker let themselves in; we exchange hugs. Leanne is anxious to get things started, she grabs my hand and pulls me toward the dining room table. I look back at Parker, who is just standing there.

"Dylan will be out in a minute, he's in the shower."

"No problem."

Leanne starts pulling stuff from her bag as I sit and watch. A notepad, envelopes, pens, paper, cards, and the list goes on. I can't imagine what she needs with this crap. She starts to organize and arrange everything and it's making me feel overwhelmed. Dylan walks into the living room, he's wearing a dark blue dress shirt and black slacks. Everything about him is distracting, he's incredibly handsome and everything I've been looking for. I don't want him to leave but, I know that if he stays, I won't be able to focus on the baby shower, and I know how much that would upset Leanne.

"We're going to take off now." Parker says as he hugs Leanne.

Dylan hugs me and kisses me on the forehead, which throws me off a bit. I notice how blue his eyes are and I can feel my heart skip a beat. Being pregnant has thrown my hormones completely off balance because the thought of him leaving has me on the edge of crying.

"Are you ok?" He asks.

"Honestly, I'm not sure. I guess I'm just a little emotional right now."

He hugs me to him, wrapping his masculine arms around me, which makes it that much harder for me to let him go. He kisses the top of my forehead and whispers to me that everything is going to be ok.

"We won't be gone long, I promise."

I'm afraid if I speak, I may have a complete meltdown so, instead I nod my head and hug him again. I watch as Dylan and Parker walk away, Parker turns around before walking out.

"Don't have too much fun."

I'm sure that I won't, even though I should. A normal person would feel excited about planning a shower but, I don't feel normal right now.

"Ok, so I thought it would be cool to design our own shower invites, especially since I couldn't find any for a double shower. Also, I need a list of friends and family that you want to invite so we can get an idea of how many people are coming and then I wanted to discuss a caterer with you."

"Uh... yea sure."

I start writing down the names of friends and family to invite and realize that I don't know a lot of people. Ever since my mom died, I fell out of touch with most of my friends. Glancing over at Leanne, I see that she has a whole page of names, I look down and notice only four names that I've written; Leanne, Parker, Dylan and Tripp. Shit. Did I really include Tripp? What was I thinking. I can't invite Tripp, can I? Do guys even come to these things? Not if they have a choice, my inner voice replies. I quickly erase Tripp's name and realize that now there are only three names and I'm not even sure if I can include Leanne. I'm suddenly feeling very depressed, I don't think I should be participating in this shower. How will it look when all of Leanne's friends and family show up and no one is there for me? I'm trying hard to fight back the tears but, I know it's a lost cause. The damn is about to break and once the tears start to fall, there is only one person in the world that can make them stop.

"I'm going to the bathroom." I say.

I don't look up at her, because I don't want her to know how stressful all this planning is making me feel. The only person I want to be with right now is Dylan but, he's with Parker having lunch and I don't want him to think I'm some crazy, emotional nutcase that can't be without him for a couple hours. I guess I'm just going to have to tough this one out no matter how emotionally unbalanced I feel right now. I try my best to get a grip on my emotions; wiping away the tears and composing myself to the best of my ability before walking back out there. Leanne is still scribbling on her notepad. It's ok, everything is fine, I'm fine. Sitting back down, I move the list of names away and eye the art pens Leanne has set out.

"So... do you have any idea how you want to design the cards?"

"Well, I was thinking they don't have to all be designed the same way. We could do something different on each card."

"Ok, do you mind if I get started?"

"Sure, go crazy."

I saw her glance at the list of names that I wrote down; or the lack of names in my case. I could tell she sensed it was a sensitive issue and didn't want to question me about it; which I appreciated. I lost all track of time once I started working on the cards. I was so focused on what I was doing that I barely noticed when Dylan and Parker walked in.

"Looks like you're still hard at work." Parker said.

I hadn't even noticed that Leanne had started working on the cards but, I did notice that her list of names had continued to a second page. All my anxieties about the outcome of this shower came rushing back to me. Instead of wallowing in self-pity, I jumped up and threw my arms around Dylan. Whenever I'm with him, everything else around me seems to disappear. All I can see is him and what we have together. He whispers how much he missed me and that he can't wait to get me in bed.

"Hey, we're going to head home, I'll talk to you on Monday man." Parker says, giving Dylan a bro hug.

I glance over at Leanne and she looks anxious to leave. I can't say I blame her, I was a complete downer the whole time; we barely said a word to each other. She's my cousin and I love her but, I'm so happy she's leaving. All I want is to spend the next two nights in bed with Dylan. Honestly, I don't want him to ever leave again.

"Dylan?"

"Yea babe."

"What would you say, if I asked you to move in with me?"