◇●◇●◇hayley's pov◇●◇●◇
Now that i have said my goodbyes to my parents who left a few weeks ago it's my turn to say goodbye to kehlani. I will miss her so much but I'm over excited about my first European tour! But that still doesn't take away the idea that she won't be by my side for most of the tour which really sucks. My bandmates are already waiting for me inside the bus so we can leave.
"Hayley hurry up!" I hear my drummer Val call out. I nod and turn back around to face kehlani who is putting the last bag inside the bus storage. "There, all set. God, hayley I'm going to miss you so much. Please take care of yourself. I will see you soon. I love you," kehlani pulls me into a tight hug.
My stomach is twisting. I'm so nervous for this tour but i know it will be fun. I also know that everything will turn out just fine. I get into the bus with everyone in it. I look out the window seeing kehlani waving at me. I smile and mouth an "i love you" to her.
The bus takes off and i turn to face my band members. I smile at everyone. "You're going to cry aren't you?" I hear marla speak. I look at her and just as she guessed i start crying. It's a mixture of tears of joy and sadness. I feel the space beside me sink a little and arms wrap around me.
"I'm going to miss her but i also want to continue to grow" i sob. I hear a few laughters. "It's alright. I bet she is absolutely happy for you but you need to stay happy for her too." I nod and wipe my tears away. I look at my team and see them giving me warm smiles. I love them so much. They are part of my family. All of them. Lawrence has been with me since the beginning.
Not everyone knows that. He was there when my first ep came out. He's been here with me since then. Val joined soon after along with marla. Neara came in after a while. And that's how my band became to be. I'm so glad i found them at some point in my life.
"How is everyone feeling? How have my people been?" I ask trying to make a conversation. "Well I'm very excited to meet new people!" Neara says with a huge smile. "This is going to be epic" Lawrence says.
"I can't wait to be up on stage feeling all the adrenaline" val says with her hands up. Being honest that's when of the best part of performing. Feeling free and feeling the adrenaline run through your blood. It's just like i dance on stage feeling carefree not worrying about anything, just living the moment.
Now the bad thing is the bus. You literally sleep on top of each other. It's the worst, it's so uncomfortable. No space whatsoever. No privacy. And don't get me started with the bathroom. Quick group showers are always advised...
It always results in an argument between all of us. Val is always the one to knock on the door telling us to hurry up. Yet she is the one to take the longest. She always says "hurry up in there, you are going to finish all the hot water" or something between those lines. And one time it really got to the point where me and neara had to actually shower together.
*flash back to the American tour*
I grab my towel walking inside the bathroom as val walks out. She has a face of worry which is concerning me. "I accidentally finished most of the hot water."
Me and neara are the only two who haven't showered yet. I was supposed to go next and then neara. But now plans changed. Neara looks at me and i sigh. I turn to give val a death stare to which she just walks away from. I groan and neara follows me into the bathroom.
We turn away from each other and undress ourselves. "Ok you take one side and i take the other. We only have like 10 minutes to shower" i explain. Neara probably nodded or something because she did exactly what i said.
"Hayley you're using most of the water!" Neara whines. "Well it's my shower too! Plus you had most of the warm water" i argue back. She groans and continues to wash herself.
*flashback over*
And that's a situation i don't want to be in ever again. There was another time where the hotel we went to had a jacuzzi but not a damn toilet! I'm not going to get too specific with that one. But those types of moments are the one's you laugh at the most.
◇●◇●◇marla's pov◇●◇●◇
Apparently kehlani and hayley are now love birds. But i can't say anything because me and Lauren have been the same for a while now. We haven't really talked much ever since she told me that she wanted me to be her girlfriend. I kind of got scared a little of what might happen between us if i let her in my life.
Hayley was the first woman i have ever been with and she kind of ruined it for me. I really thought it would be different to be with a woman than with a man. I don't see the difference. I guess it's just gender that really changes and not the attitude and etc.
I just need time. To heal, to be in a better mentality, to just get better in all ways. I'm still hurt and i can't deny that. Lauren also seemed very sad when i told her that i was going on tour with hayley. When she dropped me off at the airport i caught a glimpse of her crying in her car. She didn't notice me because she never looked up from her hands.
I felt so bad. I wanted to run to her and hug her but some idiot started shoving me further into the line. I don't know what's up with people at the airport. People seem to be more rude and have such an ugly attitude. And it isn't cute at all.
I take my phone out and open up my messages. My phone dry, as always. It better stay this dry for when i get bigger. I stay there for a while just staring at Lauren's name deciding on whether to click on it and check up on her or just leave it like that. I finally click her name.
To Lauren: hey, laur...i saw you crying in your car. I just wanted to check up on you? Are you alright? Is everything ok? I'm here if you need anything. I'm always here...i want to be there for you. Lauren i wanted to tell you that i do want to be with you. And that i do like you.
I tell her everything i wanted to tell her. But I'm not sure if i want to send it or not. I hold my thumb above the send button arguing with myself on whether to click it or not. "Boo!" I jump. I look down at my phone.
Sent.
Well shit.
