Restored Family - JJK BTS

Chapter Nineteen

PREVIOUSLY...

"So hyung are you going to tell me what you are supposed to tell me?" Jeongguk asks.

I was so nervous about seeing seventh prince that I totally forgot about it. "Hurry you have to meet the king now!" I said as I practically dragging them.

"Hyung, you should have said so," both of them shouted at me. Now they were the ones dragging me to the King's chamber.

Jeongguk pov.

We hurriedly rush to Father's chambers. When we arrived it was eerily silent. The halls were empty. It felt unreal. I hated it. It was as if I experienced it before. The silence, emptiness, void, and small voices that haunt the chamber makes me feel small and dirty. It really makes me feel like I want to disappear from this world.

I want to disappear

I want to disappear

I want to disappear

I want to disappear

I want to disappear

Stop I'm perfectly fine. My hyungs like me I'm PERFECTLY fine! I was pulling on my hair and stopped walking and just stood there. I didn't care if they were watching me as long as the voices go away.

We Will Never Go Away

We Will Never Go Away

We Will Never Go Away

We Will Never Go Away

We Will Never Go Away

They weren't spirits they were devils. Pure black-hearted devils. I hated their voices it made me feel disgusting. I forgot all about what my family will feel at this moment. I only felt the need to consider what was best for me at this moment. All because of that intense battle in my head made the Jeongguk everyone loved into a black-hearted devil. I couldn't stand those voices it drove me crazy. I slowly closed my eyes and let the dark darkness sweep me away into a river of grey. Today those voices made me realize something I can't control myself only emotions can and today another emotion has crept in my heart and bit my flesh which lasting impression and that emotion is bitterness.

Sehun pov.

We were walking to the king's chamber and we were right before the door. I was about to open the door that was separating us from Jeongguk's so-called benevolent father, but he was just a power-hungry person who got the life he wanted. I opened the door slightly before I realized Jeongguk was not behind me and Kyungsoo hyung. I quickly walk back to the hallway and saw a very heart tugging sight. Jeongguk was crouching down and grabbing his hair tightly he was saying horrible words to himself such as I hate myself.I'm don't deserve the throne. Father probably just wants me dead. I wish I was never born I want to disappear. He was in a horrible state I wanted to shake him back to his senses, but I couldn't move. Kyungsoo hyung couldn't move either. It was like they wanted us to witness this horrible scene. Jeongguk slowly took his hands off his hair and started to fall. When he fell it made a big thump. I rushed to his side as soon as I was able to move. I lifted him up and put his head in my lap as I inspected him making sure he had no injuries. I was about to stand up and carry him when I see Hoseok guiding the King toward us. I set Jeongguk down and asked Kyungsoo to help out. He gladly accepted and held on to Jeongguk's shoulder. I walk toward both of them. I went on my knees in front of them and kneeled.

" I'm sorry I did a bad job of protecting your son. I saw he wasn't feeling well yet I still let him go visit you. Please punish me, your majesty," I said. I was partially at fault for neglecting him in the first place and haven't been protecting him right.

"You may rise, Child, you worked hard. My child has an unpleasant past, but we want to fix it. You are by him so much you surely can help him after His Eunoch and Master Lee took a hurried retirement it must be hard on him. Go and tell Housekeeper Park to cook some hot herb soup it will probably make him feel better." King said as he patted Hoseok's hand signaling them to head back to the room.

I walk back with the thought in my head such as: What tragic past does he have? Is it connected with Concubine Parks unsolved death? Why did my father tell me before I came here that Jeongguk was living in China for five years when he was a boy in the palace? Did they hire a boy to live in the palace for five years? Why did father tall me don't mention the name Han Han in front of Jeongguk? Why did Jeongguk faint? These were all questions that filled my mind as I walked back to the courtyard. When I arrive I see Jinyoung walking in the garden and picking herbs.

I call out to him "Jinyoung, can you spare some time and make soup for Jeongguk. You probably already saw Kyungsoo bring him into his room."

"Hyung, yeah sure is Jeongguk okay he didn't look well," Jinyoung replied.

"Yeah, he probably caught a cold," I said. Since I had no idea what Jeongguk has or caught or maybe he was just tired.

"Well Just know that the soup will be done in no time," Jinyoiung said as he rushes back into the kitchen.

I walk back to my shared servant's quarter I shared with Yugyeom. It always felt like he was never there. He always looked after the courtyard at night. I was so surprised to see Yugyeom sitting on the mat reading a scroll about martial techniques.

"Yugyeom it's rare to have you back this early," I said as I sat beside him.

"Hyung, you are never here when I'm here it's's almost like your a stranger living in a house that I also live in," Yugyeom said not looking up from his scroll. "Hungry I am. Bye hyung, food I will find now," Yugyeom said as he got up and walked out of our shared room. I lay on my mat slowly drifting into dreamland.

I just want to say I purple you 💜💜💜 Today, Tomorrow, and Forever