Facing reality
As soon as those words left the edge of his lips my head began spinning, the same way my world began falling apart. I knew I could live without him but I just didn’t want to. He wasn’t just my boyfriend he was my best friend – and I had no choice in what happens next.
"You’re moving?" I questioned like a part of me hoped he would be joking, but when he looked up- I knew that he was as serious as Riley when it came to pizza and Zac Efron.
‘’I’m sorry I – uh I – ‘’ as he kept silent I didn’t know if I should respond or not. ‘’Why? ’’ His hands moved to the side of my face and spoke ‘’My mother’s getting married and she’s sending Austin , Jamie and I to my aunt sahras until she gets settled in, I’m sorry about only telling you now love , I just didn’t know how to.’’
I didn’t know what to say once again so instead I rapped my hands around his neck ‘’ so what happens now with us?’’ he looked up at me with nothing but pain that radiated throughout his whole body. ‘’Violet, I-I guess it’s clear and even though all of me doesn’t want it this way , I have no choice- we can’t be together –‘’ I cut him short before he said anything that he might later regret. ‘’No ill wait till you get back and we text and Skype maybe even meet up just don’t leave me like this please Tyler.’’
He looked in my eyes but I could feel how distant he was now and one thing I feared more than anything was that he would never comeback. ‘’Violet I love you , but no you can’t wait , I may never come back at all – so go please just go-‘’ anger now filled throughout me how could just decide that this was the way it would be, I mean doesn’t it work both ways? Don’t I get a say. He stood up and started walking away from me that’s when I yelled ‘’Ty don’t do this please.’’
He turned around and looked at me, his hands balled into fists and his eyes as red as they could get, he looked down and clenched his jaw and finally he spoke ‘’ it’s the only way okay and I’m sorry that it has to be this way but it’s just not meant for us Violet and if in some twisted way it is – ill find my way back to you …’’ He walked up to me and with the pad of his thumb he removed the now falling tear , and then he placed his hand on the nape of my neck until my forehead reached his warm lips. Right now I felt no need to move- almost like I needed to savor this moment. And suddenly he pulled away and began walking towards the gate and soon enough he was nowhere to be seen.
I sat down again not finding a reason to leave right now. I sat there hoping that he’d walk through those gates. Before I had noticed Riyy and Bee had found their way back home when they had seen me on the floor alone they both jumped out and ran across the huge field ‘’ How was the date viii?’’ Blaire asked playfully. ‘’ It – was great, uhm Riley could you take me home please?’’
Taken aback they both looked confused and had no idea what was going on. I wasn’t in the mood to share feelings right now not to sound bitchy but I had to figure things out before I became a total mess. All I wanted right now was to be left alone in the confinement of my lonely home.
‘’yeah c’mon let’s get yo ass home women.’’ Riley said not wanting to push me into any talking right now ‘’Oh and me too Riyy, on the way.’’ Blaire said giving Riley one of those say something this is awkward looks. ‘’ yeah sure, I’m basically the transporter with a crap car.’’ Blaire laughed and then looked over at me, to see if I did too, I smiled doesn’t that count a little?
A whole part of me wanted to burst right then and there but I just couldn’t, I need to be stronger than this, I’m not going to fall apart because he left me, I’m not going to sit and mope about it. But I do need time to get over him and that wasn’t going to be easy at all. After we got into the car Riley just didn’t start the car. ‘’ okay so why are we waiting here Riyy?’’ I questioned confused.
‘’Violet how long before you tell us what's bothering you because Blaire and I both know that you are an expert at bottling stuff up dude. So. Please. Talk.’’ She said stating facts. I knew what she meant but I had no reason to talk I was basicall- ‘’Violet life is not worth living if you’re going to be sad most of the time.’’ Blaire said as if she had read the quote off twitter. ‘’ what the hell Bee? Are you trying to get her to commit suicide? ‘’
I laughed at the two of them and said’’ guys I’m fine- Ty and I just broke up but I’m ok I promise, I just need time to figure things out-‘’ they both looked at me with pity and sadness I could see the sympathy flowing from the way they both looked at me.
And then Blaire said something we’d all expect Blaire to say ‘’ Hey don’t worry time heals all wounds Vii before you know it I’ll be dating harry styles , Riley will be with the crazy nerd in the computer lab and you will find the man of your dreams, this is just the beginning of something great I promise.’’ I smiled because what ever happened these two had my back and I was going to fine . I hope.
‘’ You have your moments Bee.’’ Riley commented her and we all laughed in sync. I got off the car and waved them goodbye. When I saw the car turn on the corner I turned around and walked inside. The house was different tonight –my parents had left this morning and I wasn’t expecting anyone so I walked over to the kitchen to get something to eat but before I got there I noticed this guy standing between my fridge doors sipping a glass of milk FROM THE FRIDGE. ‘’WHO THE HELL ARE YOU ?’’ I yelled loud enough for the neighbors to hear. Stunned he turned around and looked at me with a face of clear shock.
‘’Look pal I dont know what you’re doing in my house but I suggest you take that glass of milk and my red velvet cup cake and get the hell out before I call the cops.’’ I scram this time , not because I feared that my life would be taken away because honestly this guy looked like a innocent milk thief- He was about to reply when I felt a hand hanging on my shoulder "Honey is this man bothering you?- " I spinned around by the recognition of the voice. "Aunt Allie oh my god I missed you." I jumped at her and hugged her like a cripple old women. Then it hit me that guy was still there. I soon as turned to faced him again he smiled and pulled out his hand and said "Hey sorry about rading your fridge , I'm Ryan allies boyfriend." I smiled back and said a very guilty "Uhm I'm sorry about yelling at you."
Aunt Allie than walked over towards him "Ryan honey this is Violet- the best only niece I have." she smiled and danced her way around him and hugged him from the side and then placed his hand around her waist. "Come on the two of you, I want to eat." she said as she pulled us both at our wrists.
When we got to the table I noticed about six brown bags and three pizza boxes that now covered the dining table. This looked like enough food to last us a week long. "Whose gonna eat all this aunt Allie?" I questioned slightly worried for my stomach.
"Pumpkin, this is what I call 'bonding with my niece' so sit down and enjoy" she said actually hand captioning what she said. I smiled , sat down and ate but I wasn't in the mood to get all down and dirty in greasey pizza sauce. We sat for about two hours talking about random stuff and at the end they both told me that they had gotten engaged last month after I congratulated them I hugged aunt Allie a and said "good night."
- "Violet sweetie are you okay?" she asked concerned, Ryan on the other hand was very quite, he spoke when spoken to but nothing more then that, he was basically the complete opposite of her- but I guess that's why they were so happy. "I'm just tired , I wanna get to bed now- I'll see you in the morning." She nodded and let me go . Even though I knew I was not gonna be able to sleep a wink , I just needed to be alone.When I went up to my room I checked my phone - but nothing so instead I flipped open my lap top and started watching The vampire diaries all over again but right now I wasn't in the mood for Daemons bad ass-ness. So I just put on some music and began playing the shuffle game all by myself. I sat up thinking about everything that happened today , finally sleep got the better of me and placed me into a aura of dreams I closed my eyes and soon enough everything went black.
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