Violet Frost
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He opened my door and held me close around my waist as he walked me to the house door, slowly we walked up the stairs, this was different- Aiden and I have made out and fooled around but for the first time he seemed serious about what happened between us. We were best friends and that’s how he seemed to like it, whenever we got too close he’d take a break from being with me and we’d have to start off again slowly ,Riley said he seemed to have trust issues but I don’t know what it was. He’d be so open with me and then suddenly his was a sealed book. Yeah so maybe I really liked Aiden Grey, but I guess if he likes going at it slow –so do I.
‘’ I had fun tonight thanks.’’ I said as I grabbed his hand that was travelling down my back and intertwined our fingers. He let out a soft chuckle and pulled me closer to him, my head now firmly placed against his chest.
‘’ Violet I-I –uh- have to go.’’ He said lightly pulling away from me. I knew this would be coming any time soon.
‘’ Yeah, goodnight Grey . ’’ I said as I left his hand and opened the door before I walked in he said something but I wasn’t really bothered what he had to say, so I just shut it behind me. Through the window I watched him walk home, when he got in I made my way upstairs in to my mother’s room to see if she was asleep yet. I opened the door and saw her reading some book and my dad beside her who was now knocked out.
‘’Hey mom….’’ I said softly, trying not to make a noise .
‘’Hey sweetie back already?’’ she asked placing the book down on her night stand.
‘’Yeah mom we just had a bite to eat.’’ I said leaning against her bedroom door. She smiled at me as I walked out of there room and into mine.
I noticed the window had been left open and with the way wind had been blowing all the papers from my desk had started to fly away I walked towards the window and began pulling it down when suddenly I felt a pair of hands on my waist I turned to see Aiden standing behind me, a part of me was relieved it was him while another part just didn’t want to be around him at the moment, why’d he have to be so distant.
He helped me pull the window down, without saying a word and then he turned my around to face him. I wanted to strangle him, why did he have to be so confused about this.
‘’Aiden my dad- if he-‘’ he placed his index finger on his bottom lip, instructing me to keep quiet.
‘’I’m sorry Violet, I ruined an absolutely perfect night I just don’t want to hurt you .’’ he looked into my eyes and played with my fingers.
‘’What makes you so sure you’re going to hurt me?’’ I snapped back at him.
Still holding his ground, sincerity oozed from his eyes as they examined my now ‘almost pissed’ face ‘’I hurt a lot of people that come in to my life and I care enough to tell you that I don’t want to hurt you, I’m sorry.’’
‘’I know this might come off as me being selfish but why can’t you care enough not to hurt me ?’’ I asked pulling my hand away from his and running it through my hair.
‘’It’s not that simple Violet.’’ He snapped and for the first time in my life, I noticed how hot a guy looked while he was angry.
‘’So please Aiden break it down for me?’’ I looked at him while he paced up and down my room slowly. I stood there waiting for a few minutes until he spoke again ‘’Violet… don’t you damn get it-I - I love you – and – I can’t stop thinking about you, I love you and I can’t, I - I can’t love you.’’ He said as his pace increased his hand went through his hair as he kept walking.
I stood right in front of him as I watched him stop dead in his tracks before me ‘’ Why can’t you love me?’’ I asked firmly, he dropped his gaze and made eye contact with me and then he settled down ‘’ everyone that I love ends up leaving and I can’t lose you.’’
If he was trying to make me feel guilty about this, it was working- I felt bad for him, he lost his mom, I couldn’t imagine living a day without either of my parents. I walked over towards him and gently touched his arm as I looked into his eyes and before I could say a single word he started.
‘’Violet…’’ he kept silent for a moment- ‘’I love you and I’m sorry it took me so long to fess up, but I do and I know that I messed up your night which was meant to be perfect and if you don’t mind I wanna make up for that?’’ he questioned as if I should give him an answer. A few silent moments later I decided that it was time to say something.
‘’Aiden, stop pushing me away.’’ I stated walking closer towards him and soon I felt his familiar arms wrapped around my waist- which by now I most certainly used to.
‘’I have one more surprise left for you.’’ He whispered into my ear, he drove me insane.
I chuckled and placed my hands around his neck ‘’Really?’’ I asked smirking and slightly trying to show off my dimple but doubted that he even noticed it.
He let go of my waist and walked towards my closet grabbed a paper bag from inside, which honestly baffled me as to why he had things packed in my closet. He placed the paper bag on my bed and pulled out a few DVD’s, a packet of popcorn, a packet of peeps and two slabs of chocolate, he placed the bag on the floor and pulled of his neatly done tie.
‘’What would you like to watch love?’’ he said while showing my each one as he walked me towards the bed and sat me down comfortably- hmmm The last song, The notebook or Eat pray love?
‘’Why don’t you choose…’’ I said handing them all back to him- he looked through them all, opened a cover and pushed it in to the DVD player. A few moments went by and I saw the screen change, it read…
EAT. PRAY. LOVE.
Soon enough I was sitting between Aiden’s legs on the bed as my head leaned perfectly against his firm chest; he played with my fingers not bother what was happening in the movie at all. After the movie ended it was already 12:00 am, but he didn’t move- he stayed. We spoke about how he moved from place to place since he was fourteen, after his mom passed. We also spoke about how I wanted to travel the world and get out of this town after graduation.
‘’You can go where ever you want and yeah see places but –uhm – remember a place is only as good as the people you know in it.’’ He said while intertwining our fingers ‘’… And this seems like a pretty good place Violet.’’
I smiled and closed my eyes as I began to drift off into sleep knowing that he would be able to let himself out, but before I slept I felt his lips reach down to my cheek as whispered a soft good night and slowly moved ,trying not to wake me and then everything went silent and I dozed off into a blissful sleep.
