Who's gonna love me (Urban fiction)

Whos gonna Protect me ?

{ "When life throws negativity at you , remain positive." }

"Trina wake yo stupid ass up , im going out with Rodney , watch my baby " My Godmother yelled threw my bedroom door

I glanced at the clock its 12pm

" ok im up Ebony "

My godmother ebony has been raising me since I was 13 she was my moms closet friend. my mom died from breast cancer , and Ebony tells me my father ain't nothing but a pimp , she says he probably would've pimped me if it wont for her taking me in. Ebony has a daughter named

Alana (6) , Ebony dont even know her father , To be honest I raised Lanah if you wanna get technical. Ebony cant go a night without going out and getting pissy drunk

" why you still up ? Its 12 " I said to Alana while cutting off the tv

"Pu-leaaaasse can I watch tv a little longer " she yelled while throwing a tantrum

" girl stop yelling , you can watch tv for a little longer" I said while walking into the kitchen

" you hungry Alana "

" yes " she said while watching Good luck charlie

"Why didnt you tell your momma you was hungry Lanah " I said while making her a sandwhich

"Cause she said dont bother her , and then rodney slammed the door in my face"

" im sorry lanah Rodney didnt mean it ... here , after good luck charlie go off go to bed " I said while handing her the sandwhich

I swear I wish Rodney would get his shit to together and actually provide around her like a man should .

I climbed back into bed and called my bestfriend Tasha , i know she up around this time

She answered on the third ring

" Hey tee "

" HEY BOO" she yelled

" damn tee you so extra , why you gottah yell " I said getting irritated

" why your panties in a twist , you know im extra 24/7 " she chuckled

" Yeah i know , I just called to see what you was doing " I laughed while rolling my eyes

" girl nothing waiting for jr. To get out the shower YASS he say he got something planed for me night " she said in her ghetto voice

" yall nasty , i think Ebony back .. Ill call you tomorrow boo " I laughed

" okay baby " she laughed while hanging up

I rolled my eyes at the fact that ebony lets rodney treat lanah any type of way . She a poor excuse for a mother .

I walked to the living room and saw lanah on the couch sleep on one end and ebony sleep on the other end smelling like weed and alcohol , i turned off the tv and walked back to my room

" Trina come here for a sec " rodney yelled from his room as i walked past

" yes rodney " i groaned while standing in the door way

" girl bring yo ass here " he commanded

I walked over to his bed standing next to him , i could smell alcohol on his breathe

" sit down " he said while getting impatient

I sat down next to him feeling uncomfortable

" you trynna make some extra cash" he questioned while looking me and down and lifting my chin

" no im good " i said while tryna get up

" bitch im not done talking " he said while grabbing my waist and slamming me onto the bed

" rodney im good i dont need your money " i said while tryna fight back

" shutup " he commanded while slapping me with one hand and feeling on my breast with another

" stop ! Rodney please dont do this" i cried out

" shut tf up before you wake up ebony " he said while pulling off my shorts

" STOP ! Pleasee ! " I yelled but my yells felt silent

" what i tell you " he said while punching me in the face and pulling down his pants

"Rodney please" i cried silently

He shoved him self into me while biting on my neck

" owwh ! Rodney ! Stop please ! " i yelled while fighting

He went in and out even hardener , i laid there and cried in pain

After he was done he came on my face and told me to leave his room .

I struggled to get up with blood on my inner thighs , i crawled in to the bathroom turned on the shower and got in ... I laid there and cried .

I had to fight for my virginty and I lost that battle , lord if your listening please protect me .

If my mom were here she'd never let anything happen to me .