This new year is no different then the other I sit in the house in my room contemplating my life choices, decisions I made and wonder if I regret them as much as my heart does..... i know right typical broke hearted girl well not necessarily I have anxiety and you may think everyone has it but In my mind it's something I never had before something I don't know how to fix. I guess you can say I'm scared of what life brings next death brith another year of aging loving ,hating ,I'm scared cause I don't know what god has planned for me.I'm scared that what he has planned I might end it before it has begin these are my fear but I have things that I'm thankful for people who help me feel like I'm not going insane.... people who help me not feel like I'm drowning all the damn TIME !........
But every time I try to reach for help it like.. I have a anchor on my ankle and i can't swim to the surface it's sad but poetic hear my scream hear my shout in my mind but you'll never hear me speak my pain never hear me cry never here the distraught screams for help ....
I'm okay (No your not)
I'm happy (No your not)
Just smile everything will fall into place (STOP LYING TO YOURSELF)
"Hey are you okay"
"Yeah I'm fine"(HELP ME PLEASE IT HURTS TO BREATHE!!!)
I will never be okay.....
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Mind of cold thoughts[Poetry]
PoetryA mind filled wit the pretty,ugly , happy love and heartbreak this mind is my mind. I go through a lot this is definitely not a life story or tea or whatever you think it is this is the true me in written forms of poetry I wanted to give up on love...
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