Gloria and I leave the hospital at 8 so that Felix can get some sleep.
"You wanna get a pizza?" Gloria asks as we get to her car.
"Sounds great," I am trying to keep the I'm fine look going but I don't know how well I'm doing.
"The usual good?" She smiles as she pulls out her phone.
"Perfect." As she gets on the phone I look at what time it is in Australia. I don't want to call twice in a day. It's be weird if I did.
As we drive up to the house I don't really want to talk about Felix. It was just as bad as I thought it was gonna be and I feel like dying inside. But at least she has his sense of humor. He keeps dicking with the doctors and nurses which is nice to see. A couple of my cousins stopped by including Rebecca who is gonna do my hair tomorrow.
"You wanna go change into your pajamas before the pizza comes?" She smiles as we walk into the house through the garage door.
"Sounds great, I'll be back soon," I plaster a smile on before heading to my place.
I get to my door and unlock it quickly, as I step inside and close the door. As the door shuts I slide my back down the door and I feel the tears that I have been fighting back begin to fall. I don't want to move ad I don't want to cry I have to keep strong and carry on. So I slowly get up and make my way to my room to pull my pajamas back on. I even put on fuzzy socks before slipping my house slippers on.
I walk back into the house and Gloria is already in her sweats and paying the pizza guy.
"That was fast," I laugh as she walks into the kitchen.
"Well it's usually this fast," she smiles and opens the box of deliciousness. I am putting on my brave face so she doesn't see the pain. "You wanna watch a movie or do you want to hit the bed early? Because I'm exhausted and will probably fall asleep mid-way through." She smiles.
"I'll head to bed early," I smile as I take several pieces and place them on a plate. "Goodnight, love you." I kiss her cheek before walking out the back door.
"Love you sweetie!" I hear her laugh. Then my façade drops as I get into my place.
I put the pizza on the coffee table and I sit on the couch and try to eat. I am going to try and eat even though I'm not really hungry. I put Netflix on and put it on Lie to Me. I need to distract myself. I pull my knees to my chest and try to finish a piece of pizza. Then my tears finally fall and I don't know what to do, but I'm alone. I don't need to put on a brave face for anyone so I finally let the tears run free.
I lay on the couch and just let my hot tears run down my face. I can't get the scene of Felix in the hospital, so weak, out of my head. I feel like I'm dying. I can only imagine what Gloria is feeling. That makes the tears come harder and my body shakes. I haven't cried this hard since Halloween.
As I wallow in my pain I hear my phone buzz on the table. It's a call and I think it might be my parents and I don't want to talk to them. I pick it up and see that it's Ashton. I could use a friend right now.
"Hi," I squeak and I know he can tell something is wrong. It wouldn't be that hard, I sound like shit.
Alice what's wrong? The concern in his voice breaks me. I shouldn't have picked up.
"Screw my parents!" I yell and I guess I'm not gonna tell him about Felix.
Oh god, what did they do?
"My dad finally called when I was on my way to see Felix and the first fucking question he asks me is when I got to Phoenix last night! Then he asked if I was coming home and if I would go to a fucking fundraiser for them tonight! After I just told him I was going to see his brother, who has cancer, in the hospital!" I cry and yell and I cover my eyes with my left arm while my right held the phone to my ear.
I wish I was there to hug you.
"I wish you were here too or I was there. I didn't think that being home would be this hard."
How's your truck? He knows just how to distract me.
"She's good, Gloria had her dropped off at her house before I got here. " I wipe the tears from my eyes and try to regain some composure. "How was your day?"
It was good, the boys and I wrote a couple of songs. Hey have you read the new book I gave you?
"No, I'm sorry I forgot it on my desk. I meant to put it in my carry on and I forgot I'm sorry," I hear my voice break and the tears just keep coming. It's a fucking book Aly get yourself together.
It's ok, you can read it when you get back. How was Felix? And now the ugly sobs are renewed. I bet he regrets calling now.
"He is still cracking jokes but he looks awful. There are a bunch of machines hooked up to him, he looks like he's lost like over fifty pounds. He looks so weak and it just hurts," I cry and pull one of the couch pillows to my chest so I can hold it.
Oh Alice, I hear him have this sadness in his voice and now I feel even worse for flinging this onto him.
"Ash I'm sorry, I'm not ok right now. If you want I can call back tomorrow when I get my shit back together." I try and chuckle but nothing comes out.
I'm ok. You need a friend right now and I have nothing but time for you. My heart feels a little lighter and I could kiss him.
"You're the best Ash," I whimper as he just starts talking about random things that the boys did today.
I don't know what I would do if I didn't have Ash or any of the boys. Ash just lets me cry and tells it'll be better in the morning. I lie on the couch as he just talks to me. I start feeling better and I stop crying. I just want to hug him and tell him thank you, so I make a mental note that as soon as I see him I am hugging him.
You feeling better? I hear his soft voice on the other end.
"Yeah, thank you Ash, I don't know what I'd do without you," I smile genuinely for the first time since seeing Felix.
I'm always here for you.
And with that we both hang up realizing that my time it's 11 pm and I'm going to have to get up pretty early for church tomorrow. Lord knows Gloria won't let me miss it. I lay in my bed just thinking about what I need to do to get through this next month without completely dying inside.
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Hey guys!!! I hope you like chapter. I know it's short but I hope you still like it.
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