The Neighbor (5 SOS fan-fiction)

It Goes By

So the week flew by and today is our last day so Ash has decided to take me surfing, and basically teach me, all in one day. I think this will end up being a bad idea, but I do it anyways. Why? Because I'll get to see Ash shirtless... and as we all know, Aly likes that.

"You ready to go?" I hear Ash call and I look in the mirror of the motel and realize that I am actually in a bikini, and everyone will see all my imperfections.

"Yeah, could you hand me the dress I laid on the bed," I say, knowing I sound like a small child for being afraid of anyone seeing my body.

I open the door a crack just to get the dress and then I close it quickly. I look at myself and I think I'm actually ok looking, but Ash has seen Jane naked, I really can't compete with that. Then again, why should I care at all? I don't even know why I am caring about what I look like compared to Miss Perfect Body, Jane.  

I pull on the dress and all I want to do is pretend that I don't care, I still do though which sucks, and all I know is when  I walk out he will not look at me in the same way that he looks at her. I walk out anyways and walk towards my stuff. I notice that Ash is looking at my ass, and while I know my ass is amazing, it is just a tad bit weird. 

"You ready?", I ask looking at the boy behind me. 

"Whenever you are", he smirks, and all I want to do is push him against that damn wall and kiss those beautifully soft lips. "You look great," he exclaims, bringing me out of my trance-like state.

"Thank you very much, why don't we leave now lest we miss it." I smile at him, grabbing my beach bag with sunscreen and a towel tucked neatly into it. 

"Sounds good, ladies first." He smiles brightly and opens the door for me.

"Thank you very much sir." I smirk at him. 

"You are very welcome my lady," he chuckles behind me. I look back at him while he closes the door to our little motel room. In every night that I have slept, never have I slept better than with Ash right beside me. We have been avoiding all serious topics and it's been great. But there is this look in Ashton's eyes, a concerning look that tells me we need to talk about him and Jane. 

We walk basically in utter silence, but it's comfortable silence. We don't always need words for things to be ok, for the air was teems with a peaceful sense of serenity in the silence. I look around and realize that this beautiful place is now my home, or at least, one of them. Tuscon, with Tio and Tia is also my home.  All I know is that I don't want this one to be temporary, but I know that once I get my degree... it will be; Now something new is pulling, urging me to give in to it's gravitation, and making me re-think the plan. I don't understand why I want to stay, I mean I do have friends here but that isn't enough to give up on my whole plan for my life, but what if I find happiness here? 

"You ok? you look very deep in thought over there." He chuckles timidly as I force a smile back at him. We arrive at the beach when he again asks me and I know my answer, but I need to ask him that same question back.  

"I don't know to be honest. I have a lot on my mind right now. Coming here and making friends and having the time of my life... It makes me re-think everything." I say as I lay the towel down upon the soft sand. 

"Ah, well you have time. You still have three years to figure it out," he smiles as he sits beside me. 

"Yeah, so how you doing? We haven't really talked since you invited yourself on this trip. Well, not talked about anything serious," I say as I lay towards him. 

"I'm fine, Alice," he says yet I can see the pain behind his eyes.

"No you're not. There is no point in lying to me, I can read you like a book," I smile gently at him. "We need to talk or your pain will just grow until you burst."