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🌧️Yoongi

||I Can't Do This Without You||
Yoongi x suicidal!fem!reader ✭

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Requested by pokemonsterhp! ♥️

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Trigger Warning: Suicidal thoughts, Self hatred, Death.

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If you're considering suicide, or if you ever attempted, please message me and talk to me about it. The world would be a much happier place with you in it, and I can promise to you that things will get better, even if they don't seem that way, because I once felt the same way, but I no longer do. It sucks to feel suicidal, and I don't want you to feel that way, so please, talk to me before you try and do anything. I'll help the best that I can 💞

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You and Yoongi have been dating since around the time that he auditioned to be in the group, but you've been best friends since way before that, so when he told you about wanting to audition, you wholeheartedly agreed with his decision.

You two pretty much told the other everything.

Well, that is, except for you.

It wasn't a secret that you hated certain things about yourself, but not even your closest of friends and family knew that you were suicidal. The thought that telling them would hurt them and somehow would make them mad and disappointed in you plagued your mind every single time you thought of telling them, and so you never did. You did a pretty good job at hiding it though, as your guidance counselor couldn't tell by just looking at you, and your parents never felt the need to take you to see a therapist or a psychiatrist.

It was one of those rare moments where you and Yoongi were sitting on his living room couch. His one arm was around your shoulders, and your head rested gently on his shoulder. You two decided to just chill watching random movies until the time came when he would have to go to practice, or something along that line.

And that moment came sooner than you would've liked it to. The movie you two were watching then was nearing it's end, and Yoongi had gotten a call on his cell saying that he was needed for practice. You jokingly groan out as you threw your head back onto the back cushion of the couch. Yoongi only brightly smiled at you before softly kissing your jaw.

"I'll try and make more time for us at another time, okay, babe?" He asked as he got up and turned off the TV.

You quietly sigh out before lifting your head and grinning as you outstretched your arms, meaning for him to pull your lazy ass up from the couch.

He walked in front of you, and stood staring down at you as he smirked at you for several seconds before taking your hands in his and helping you up. Except he didn't just help you get to your feet, but once you were on your feet, he bent down and picked you up by your waist, throwing you over your shoulder as he stood completely back up straight.

You just let him carry you as you giggled quietly and let your limbs sway as he moved. You didn't have enough energy in you to try and escape.

"Do you want to come with me and watch me practice, or do you want to stay here and wait for me?" He asked with you still over his shoulder.

"Eh," you said as you shrugged, but you soon decided that now would be a good time to get some last minute things done before you wanted to think up your suicide plan.