winter breaks || m.e.

18

ch. 18 ; back to the start

Jade

"yes, that is me," i awkwardly pointed to myself.

i'm so nervous, ugh jade get to the point.

"what'd you need?" he smiled at me almost making me go weak.

with a face like that, i just wanted to take his face and kiss him. why did you have to ruin things between us?

"we need to talk. privately," i added realizing that dylan left before matt opened the door.

"sure, uh come in," he gestured into his room.

i walked in and it smelled strong of that mahogany teakwood candle at bath & body works. strange that i know that. but it smelled real good.

"what's up?"

how do i bring this up?

"you're a dick."

oh wow, well address my feelings then the problem, i guess.

"what?" he started laughing a bit confused.

"the bet. i know about it. you- you used me," i was stumbling over my words.

"you used me and i fell for it," i continued.

"i trusted you. i forgave you for everything. we were friends again and then i started falling for you. it felt like we were 14 again,"

his face was red. everywhere. he looked like he was heating up. he was also tense and anything that was even remotely childish was gone. he has gone full serious and he was scared. i knew it.

"yet, you took this as a chance to bet on me. you lied to me!" i raised my voice.

i was nervous or upset anymore. i was angry.

i was angry that i wanted him. angry that i liked him. angry that he loves jessica. angry that he used me. angry that he ruined everything between us.

"jade, the bet didn't mean anything. i was never really going to get you in bed," he walked closer towards me.

i took a few steps back. no matter how much i wanted him to hold and touch me, i can't give in.

"then why did you make that bet? all the things you ever said, were they just lies to get me to sleep with you? am i easy to you?" i was fuming.

"jade, baby no. i like you, i mean it. i really like you, not jessica. this bet was something stupid before we really talked. i really do like you. please, jade. it was a mistake. forgive me."

"don't baby me. all the times i thought i could forgive you, the times i thought you changed. it was just a plan to get with me." wow i was really going at him. go girl!

"i want you. i've always wanted you, seriously."

"i'm tired of this, matthew. i'm tired of constantly waiting for the right guy to come along. having to compete with others. and once i finally get the attention of something i truly like, it's all a joke. i'm tired of having to forgive you. you're hurting me and i'm not letting you do it anymore. please just leave me alone for the rest of break. please." back to the sad. before i could start crying and break down in front of him. i left his room to be met with dylan.

i'm not crying anymore. i'm done crying because of him.

you're a bad bitch, jade. you're a bad bitch.

"it'll be okay." dylan held me.

"i know it will." i hugged back.

-

it was the next morning. i didn't have any plans honestly. i didn't plan to go out or see matthew. but that's difficult when you're living in the same house as him for a month.

"jade, are you excited for christmas?" mrs. espinosa asked me.

christmas was two weeks away. i've only gotten my parents and theo gifts. i should really get the espinosas a gift.

"very! my favourite holiday," i replied with a huge smile on my face.

i love christmas. it makes me always feel all warm and cuddly inside.

"well, i can't wait to spend it with my best friends and their family," mr. espinosa put his arm around mrs. espinosa, kissing her cheek.

they're adorable. my parents were never really about pda, but i know they love each other just as much as the the espinosas do.

"any plans for today?" my mom asked theo and i.

i shook my head and theo just didn't respond. he was too busy stuffing his face with cheerios.

"our family has never really explored california yet. maybe we should really fix that!" i proposed to my parents.

"that is true! that's a good idea, honey. what do you think, hon?" my dad asked my mom.

"i agree, what should we do?" my mom smiled pulling her phone out.

"let's go to los angeles! where everybody makes their dreams come true. we should see the hollywood sign and stuff." theo told us.

"that sounds good, do you guys want to take rafael's car? we don't want you to get stuck with a cab or that oovoo javer stuff," mrs. espinosa threw the keys to my dad.

"i'll start getting ready!" i said before putting my dish in the sink.

i walked up the stairs, making quick eye contact with matthew before he broke it and rushed downstairs.

phew.

i can't let my guard down. especially not for him.

-

"okay it says on google maps, that it's a left turn then we can start hiking up there," theo read from his phone.

"how long is the hike?" my mom groaned.

"oh um, three hours."

"turning the car around right now," my dad began to spin the steering wheel to make a u turn.

i looked at theo and started laughing hard. it's been a while since i've spent a day with my family. just us.

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a/n

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