Jonathan
I practically ripped off my waiter uniform and tossed it onto the bed, changing into something more comfortable. I locked my door and sat on the bed, slipping my hand under the pillow. I put it back under there because Dylan and Cole know that I put it somewhere else. I grabbed the invitation and took the card out of the envelope, staring at Amanda's picture. Looking at her face made my right cheek tingle where she kissed it. Her lips were the softest things I've ever felt and I wished that kiss was on my lips, but I'm asking for too much. I'm grateful for the kiss I did get, but she has a boyfriend and I know without a shadow of a doubt that he hates my guts. I don't want to start drama especially at her quinceanera. Like she said this is the biggest night of her life and I won't ruin it so my decision is made; I'm not going. I can't and I won't. I like her too much to crash her special day and I hope that in the future she'll understand and forgive me. I just wish things didn't have to be this way. I wish my mom was still here; I wish I never met Lucas and the boys and it was just my mom and me; I wish Amanada didn't have a boyfriend; I wish I could be her first dance at her party; I wish I could kiss her lips. I want a lot, but all those wishes are impossible and will never happen no matter how hard I wish for them. The world stinks.
Luckily for the rest of the day, I didn't have work and Lucas allowed Kyle to come over, but we were to stay in my room. I didn't have a problem with that.
"I can't wait for this party," Kyle stated. "Amanda always has the most amazing ones, no wonder she's the most popular girl in school and she's only a freshman."
All I could do was nod. I couldn't tell Kyle that I wasn't going to the dance, because then he would say all these things about Amanda that would tempt me to go. I know he will show up at my house the night of the party and that's when I'll tell him. It'll be too late then and there will be nothing for him to do about it.
