The stress was slowly getting to her, it was driving her insane.
She was slowly losing her mind.
The counseling never helped, because after she said she'd stop working so much, she goes back and surrounds herself in work.
Everyone said she would be fine, that she'd get over it. But it never fixed itself, instead it became anxiety and depression, and the fear of rejection.
The fear of being judged, the fear of being forgotten.
The antidepressants didn't seem to help, because the epilepsy medication made it worse. She really was losing her mind.
Whenever she saw someone was better then her, she'd lose it, she acts like she doesn't care, but she does.
Every word said by others dug deep into her skin, cutting deep until she broke down and allowed the words to enter.
She feels like every good thing is fake, she wonders if everything is a lie.
At night, she'd tell her online friends she was going to bed, but instead she hide under her sheets and cry until the sun returned.
She would look at her old work, all her old writings and want to rip them up and scream until she herself burned with the words.
She felt like she was being judged by everyone, for every word she wrote she felt like she was being judged.
She wanted book, game, and movie characters to be real so she'd have to someone to talk to and they could possibly care for her, and not judge her.
But that couldn't happen.
It was driving her crazy.
It had been going crazy for years.
She was crazy.
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Sorry about this, I just needed to vent. I'll probably delete it later and get to work on Kizuna x Kiyoka.
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Ain't My Fault (DRA/SDRA2 One-Shots and Short Stories)
FanfictionBasically this book will be filled with- Fluff, ships, and happiness (also invasion of my oc) So a quick warning, there's probably going to be death, and lots of feels. So...good luck trying to get through this.
