Society.

Chapter 2

Anna's POV

I couldn't sleep that night. That night was when my life changed forever.

I was happy before I slowly got anxiety. That kinda ruins you without being diagnosed with anything else.

I took out the blades from a shaver and hid a couple under my mattress. This was a daily thing for me, living my life in fear.

My mum decided I needed to see someone because she thought I was 'depressed'.

I went into school the day after the threats came through. Suddenly, everyone acted differently around me. Or maybe I acted differently around them.

Having anxiety kills you from the inside. If you got it really bad, then it would kinda suck. You can't live your normal life any more. Everything changed.

"Oh my god. Look at how fat she is!" I heard one girl say pointing towards me.

I started throwing up after every meal and everything. My life kinda went down hill.

My old friends slowly abandoned me. I was alone.

Umm yeah and my boyfriend dumped me.

That's basically my life update.

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As school finished, it started to rain, and me being me forgot my coat. I got soaked. Not only that, but I got pushed down into a puddle.

As I looked back up, I could see all my old friends taking pictures of me and laughing. ALL of them.

Could my life get any worse? Oh yeah, it can. My ex-boyfriend kissed by ex-best friend, Melanie.

As I got home, my mum made dinner. I ate 2 mouthfuls and made myself sick. Early bed for me.

That night, I cried myself to sleep. Bit I didn't cut even though I desperately wanted to. My mum, Janet, was rubbing my head.

I wanted to die.

I know that some people have it worse of than me. All I can say is that I feel sorry them.

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Janet's POV

Anna has been crying a lot more lately. I wonder if it's something to do with school.

I wouldn't ask her. She got angry quickly. That's why I was testing her for anger issues.

I stroked her head last night until she fell asleep. I looked on her phone and saw all these hate messages overloading the inbox.

Can't everything be normal?? When she would always used to come back with a smile. I loved that smile.

I haven't seen her happy within a week now. I hope it's just one of those things that pass quickly.

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Anna's POV

My younger sister came barging through the door and woke me up. "What the hell do you want now Kate?" I asked her.

She didn't reply. She just looked around at all the stuff in my room and started taking things.

"Go away." I screamed as I threw a pillow at her.

"I can do what the hell I wan't. I mean your not gonna be here much longer. You depressed little bitch!" she shouted.

I cried with my head between my knees. She tried to apologise but I wouldn't accept it.

I skipped out on breakfast, lunch and dinner. You could now see my rib cage and collar bone. I just needed hip bones and a wider thigh gap. I just sat up against my bedroom door blocking people from getting into my room.

I had a blade with me and starting to cut my thigh. I did it too deep and it wouldn't stop bleeding. I just ignored it and slit my elbow crease. Blood came dripping down onto the floor.

"Anna, let me in." I could hear mum shout from the outside of the door. I didn't say anything and just kept still.