NEVER FORGET YOU | 2

Chapter Twenty-one

C H A P T E R - T W E N T Y  O N E

Song- Rock Bottom, Hailee Steinfeld.

There are some days, maybe too many, where everything seems impossible. Facing the world becomes a chore, and moments which once instilled an exhilarating excitement in our veins are things that now proceed to stop our hearts all together.
It’s hard, but everyone knows that.
You know that.
No one is immune to the hardships of life, even though for some the degree of those setbacks, and the mental toll they take, is far more than for others. But every feeling is valid. Every moment in which you think to yourself how terrible your day is going is valid, and no one should ever tell you otherwise.
There’s a beauty to our hardships that comes out of every morning that we choose to wake up, to consciously open our eyes and tell the world that we will once again conquer the myriad of obstacles it throws our way. That’s where the beauty lies in this world. In each of us, when we refuse to give up.

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When I was forced to be in an abusive relationship, I had made myself believe that physical intimacy is all about to what extent one can hurt someone, in the most disgusting and cruelest way...

...Like HE did to me.

He made sure to make me feel like I'm the worse worthless piece of shit who deserved to be punished by him as he please. He not only stripped my body, but he also stripped away my self worth layer by layer until even my bones held no trace of my personality. I lost sight of the girl I used to be. She was caged in my chest, he swallow the key while I stood there helplessly and watch him take everything that once belongs to me, including my dignity. My self respect.

I thought I'll never be healed again. I'll never trust anyone ever again. And most importantly, I'll never give myself to someone again, atleast not willingly.

But here I am, tonight, in totally different place. With a complete different person. Having the most beautiful experience of my life. The person I have love the most with my everything. And I was truly ready to give him My everything. Both emotionally and physically, wanting nothing in return but him.

Everything about him made me feel alive. The way he looked at me like I am the most beautiful girl he has ever laid his eyes on. The way he touched me like he wanted to saviour me. And the way me made me feel... loved, it was just so overwhelming.

He made me forget all my worries. All my self doubts. He made me wonder 'why was I scared again?' And most importantly... he made me feel normal.

But... How can I forget... I am anything but normal.

"Kavya, tell me, who did this to you?" His deep raspy voice ricocheted through my eardrums, bringing me back to reality.

My unfocussed eyes focused back on him. His eyes are still deep blue but the lust was gone, and the white of his eyes are now red, filled with fury. And the way he is looking at me, waiting for me give him answer made me squirm nervously in his arms.

Wait. A. second... In his arms?

That's when I realise the reality to situation we are into. How intimately close we are.

Oh my god... I'm in arms... Completely naked.

Okay, maybe not completely naked, I still have my underwear on. But I Am completely naked from top.