Don't Leave Me Alone (Destiel/Sabriel)

Bad thoughts

Sam POV:

I walk into the bathroom and put my clothes on the counter. I look up at the mirror and i just stand there for a little bit looking at myself. I hate how i look. I'm ugly. Worthless. Nothing. Why does Gabriel care? It's gotta be a trick. For sure. He's only being nice to me because Castiel and Dean are pretty much a thing. Yea, that's it. I start to take off my hospital dress and i hear a knock at the door. "Hey, you okay Sammy?" It's Dean. I knock once for yes and i continue getting dressed. Once i'm done i wash my face and then stand in front of the mirror once again. Why can't anyone just let me die? I want to die. I punch the wall with my left hand, same arm that's injured, and bite my lip so that i don't cry out in pain. I wrap some toilet paper over my hand and walk out. "Sam what happened to your hand?" Dean asked. I shake my head and walk out in the hall. Dean follows and pulls my shoulder back so i'm facing him. "What the hell happened Sam?" he asks. I shake my head and smile at him and i start to walk away but he grabs my hand and takes the toilet paper off, exposing my bloody knuckles. I pull away and head to the elevator. I push the down button and then Dean walks over and says, "is it because Gabriel likes you? Are you questioning why he likes you?- I feel the same way, i don't know why Cas likes me." i look at him and we share a look of 'well shit' and then i look down the hall where my room was. Castiel and Gabriel are a few feet away from us. I'm pretty sure they heard Dean talking. I look down and the elevator door opens and i practically run into the elevator and pull Dean in. I push the lobby floor button furiously and the door closes on Castiel and Gabriel. "Sam what the hell man?" i motion that they heard him. "So what if they heard me talking? I kissed Cas. I'm pretty sure he knows i like him." What the hell? When did this happen?? I look at him and he just looks blankly at me as if he didn't say anything wrong. I grab my phone out of my pocket and type 'when did this happen?? did he kiss u back??' and show it to him. "When we went to get the food. And yea, he did. We were pretty much making out. But maybe i should ask him out 'cause this dude, Jake, asked for his number and he gave it to him." i'm so confused right now. I look down at the floor and he hands me my phone back. 'Why did we bring them into our life? They can get hurt, just like you did.' i type then give it to Dean. The elevator dings and we walk out. And then everything goes black.

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