Don't Leave Me Alone (Destiel/Sabriel)

Alley's Are Dangerous

Sam POV:

It's a dream. It's all a dream. That's all it is. They're not real. Me and Dean must be dead. Nobody would want us. It's all a lie. It's fake. Fake. Fake. Fake. That's all i keep thinking. It's nearly 10 and i haven't gotten much sleep. I feel myself dozing off and feel something on me, warming me.

~At 5 in the afternoon~

I wake up to the tv on and thank fuck i didn't have a dream. I hear someone laugh and open my eyes and look up to see Gabriel smiling down at me, my head in his lap. "Morning beautiful." He says. I feel my face heat up and i smile slightly, sittin up. I pull the blanket over me and lean into Gabriel. "You hungry?" I shake my head. "Want coffee?" I shake my head again. "Are you going to talk to me?" I don't answer. I don't want to speak at all. But i don't want him to feel unwanted. "Y-y-ye-s" Great, my stutter is worse. I hate my life. I'm nothing. I can't even speak right. Ughhh. He puts his hand on my face and gives me a sad smile. "You don't have to talk, i just don't want you mad or upset at me." He says moving his hand to clasp mine. I give him a reassuring squeeze and kiss his cheek. I don't know why i ever thought this was fake. They love us. They both love me and Dean. I wonder if they even want to stay though. I mean, honestly, who would want to stay after what we went through. I'm nothing, i worthless, i hurt myself because i can't stop the nightmares, i don't talk, i have a stutter, i'm always tired, i just can't keep my thoughts still, and i can't keep myself from overthinking. I just can't-

"Hey, you okay?" I nod and give him a smile. "Don't lie to me Sam. Please." I put my head down and shake my head. "What's wrong?" I look around for my phone and finally notice Cas and Dean are gone. Where are they? I look over at Gabriel with a raised eyebrow. "They went to get breakfast." i nod and stand to go get my phone. I come back out of my room with my phone and see Cas come in the door with tons of groceries. Dean following suit with mcdonalds bags, smiling like a maniac. "Fat ass." Gabriel calls out and Dean puts the bags down and throws a fry at him. "Shut the hell up or i'll just throw away this bag of skittles i got you and the strawberry syrup i bought for your pancakes." Gabriel puts his hand over his heart and fell onto the couch. I chuckle and poke him, making him squirm. "You hungry Sammy?" I nod and go to the table. Gabriel sits next to me and Cas and Dean sit in front of us. Everyone eats but i just pick at my food. They talk about random things as if last night didn't happen and suddenly it comes to me- i've got to get out of here right now, i need some air. I stand up abruptly, everyone stares and i walk out the front door, grabbing my jacket on the way out. I hear my name being called but i just ignore it. I go down a random ally and slide down to the ground, beside the trash can. I sit there for a bit, just going over everything, the nightmare i had last night, them not leaving, how we haven't known each other for very long but they know, how we need them and i just can't get one thought out of my mind- Azazel is here in town. If he knows we're here then he will kill us. He'll kill me and Dean along with Castiel and Gabriel. I can't let that happen. No. I can't. Tears are streaming down my face and i can barely breath. I try to catch my breath but it doesn't work. Fuck! I can't do anything right. I'm sobbing hysterically now and then i start laughing. I can't believe i let myself fall for Gabriel. He doesn't love me. He doesn't care. I'm just a charity case. I wipe my face and stand up slowly. I take a deep breath, finally being able to breath semi-okay and start walking down the alley with my head down.

"You know, even in loose pants, your perky little ass looks great." My breath hitches at the familiar deep voice and i turn around to see him. 

My uncle. 

Azazel.