Sister ( Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 40

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Sun, beach, golden sends, blue water, shirtless buddies, tan, drinks and lying here alone with your bestie. What else can you ask for?

Well, let me tell you one thing. You would not ask for anything else if you ere on my place. Especially, after living in cold London for months ( which, because of living in Chicago, was not really familiar for me) this sunny weather was fully deserved by me. ( Not to mention living in a jail was horrible) And hey! Finally, here I was, living my life, enjoying freedom and just feeling happy, you know?

Things between Claire and me has dramatically changed. I mean, to good, of course...or at least, I think like that. After I told her about our trip to Miami, she became all that crazy woman jumping on the bed unendingly we see in movies. She was so happy, damn, she was even happier than me. We went shopping together, of course with Nick, but better him then somebody else. for god's sake. We bought some colorful bikinis and a lot of stuff for Miami. She stopped avoiding me and even started acting like before. I told her everything that happened between Niall and me and for the first time for so long, she gave me that genuine advises he was so used giving me in the past, while we were living in Chicago.

Anyway, I decided not to think about Niall for a while, at least while I'm in Miami. We both need some time to overthink everything. I surely am not telling that I am innocent and of course, I'm  not blaming Niall for being mad at me. I did hurt his feelings and I'm really sorry for that. I do care about him, I on'r know how I see him., as a friend or maybe something more, but one thing  I am 100 % sure of is, that I don't want to loose him. Maybe, just maybe, after this vacation, I will be able to finally understand what am I feeling towards him.

But, no matter what that feeling is, it can't be any stronger than the one I have for Harry.

My nightmare.

No matter how hard I try, how hard I push him in the back of my head, I can't stop thinking about him and the almost sex we sheared. Well, maybe that wasn't even almost, but hey! I, for the first time in my entire life wanted to became someone's.

I don't know what does this boy has, but he surely, exactly knows ho to touch me, ho to turn me on and I keep thinking, is every guy capable of that or is that his thing? Is that what makes him Harry Styles?

I somehow know, that Niall's lips will never feel as delicious against mine, as Harry's.

Stop!

Stop comparing the polar opposites- My mind mentally slaps me.

It's been over a week now since I last saw Harry. Damn it, we ere in his house, absolutely alone, kissing and god knows what doing and now..as always he disappeared. I have called him the day after my birthday and apologized for leaving him alone like that, The thing that bothers me is that he didn't forgive me. Not because he didn't want to, or because he could not. But because he was not even upset. I'd rather been yelled or something, but he said nothing, as if he didn't even care weather I would stay at his place, or not. He was kind of playing that careless man's role. He just noded saying it was okay and he had to go because his mate was coming over.

And here I am fooled again. I thought things between us would work out that night, I almost lost my virginity fot god's sake!

But, just like that, he disappeared, again. And this time, I really am done trying. I won't think about him anymore. I swear.