Gone // Nct [Book 2 of letters]

two.

15 minutes went by and still, not a single person moved.

"look, I know we lost somebody very special and close to us but we can't hide the fact that sicheng's gone...there's nothing we can do anymore." everyone diverted their eyes to the one who spoke up and go figure, it's the manager.

you can clearly see in the boys eyes they weren't in the mood for any lecture especially if it was from their manager. all they wanted to do was cry with each other and remember all the smiles & laughs they once shared.

the car went silent again, that is, until they heard yuta scoff.

"you can't say anything about him, you don't even care about any of us, the only reason you're here is because you're required to come so you can get fucking paid." he spat, glaring daggers at the manager.

no one tried stepping in knowing how hurt yuta was by this whole situation. they all just watched everything unfold between those two.

yuta is the type of member who doesn't show his emotions well in front of others but when it's about someone he deeply cares & loves, showing every ounce of feeling is his escape....especially anger.

the manager should of been careful with his next words but one doesn't think before they speak which ends up with consequences.

"maybe if sicheng wasn't such a bitch he would still be here but no, he took the easy way out because all he cared about was himself."

before anyone could react, yuta lunged at the manager punching him square in the jaw. the car erupted in gasps before taeyong pulled yuta back allowing him to calm down.

there was no such thing as calming down, yuta was furious.

who knew a funeral could end up in a blood battle.

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once everything seemed to be fine they all stepped out.

the rain only started to pour harder but no one cared, for fucks sake, they were about to bury one of their own never getting to see him again.

as they were walking, doyoung realized one of the members weren't with them so he hurried back to the car only to see yuta sobbing in his hands.

the sight broke his heart, he missed sicheng just as much as everyone else but you can definitely tell yuta missed him way more. the bond those two had made you think they were dating but sadly, it never got to that point.

doyoung didn't want to intrude but he couldn't just leave him there so he climbed back inside and pulled him into a hug. in not even a second his suit was covered with tears.

if crying will make yuta feel better then doyoung was going to sit there until then.

it was silent for a bit, minus the sniffles coming from the younger.

"i miss him so much, it hurts so much...i don't know what to do doyoung." hearing how broken yuta's voice was saddened him. he didn't know what to do or how to help.

he can't just ignore him so doyoung tried his best to sound somewhat helpful. "he's somewhere better yuta, he was miserable alive, we're just as upset as you but that's why we're here, to say our last goodbyes. i know this isn't what you wanted to hear but, just know that sicheng is looking down on you where he's happier. if you ever need someone to talk to when we go back i'm here." by the end of his sentence they both sat there holding each other trying their fucking best to keep the tears from pouring.

losing someone is awful, it's the worst feeling ever.

knowing that you're never going to make anymore memories or share another laugh with them hurts.

with sicheng gone, everyone feels lost.

useless.

broken.

incomplete.

the older knew it was going to be much harder on yuta so he promised himself that no matter what he'll always be there to help with whatever the younger needs.

"come on, the funerals about to begin and they need us.....sicheng needs you." doyoung softly spoke, earning a slow nod in return. not needing to say anything else, he stood up walking out of the car waiting for yuta.

(Read in Narrator POV)

the thing about it, is that yuta wasn't ready to say goodbye.

he wasn't mentally prepared to see his coffin, not now or ever.

the fucked up thing is, is that he needed to say goodbye, just because he wasn't ready, yuta knew deep down he had to say his final words.

".....sicheng, i'll always love you."

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hi everyone!! i'm so sorry this chapter took a long time but it's out and i hope you all enjoy🖤
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this chapter will definitely be edited so if it gets unpublished then that's why
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please look forward to the next chapter and the rest of this book as it will get much better
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i'll see you all soon<3