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I Will Always Love You

A few days passed since you were in the hospital, the pain was frequent and brutal. You laid there with Harry's arms wrapped around you. You both didn't sleep much; Harry's eyes had been swollen and red since you told him you weren't going to let your kids die. You tried to situate yourself but every time you did the pain would come back.

You both were startled by the sound of a nurse coming in with an ultra sound machine. They did this almost every six hours.  She put the god awful cold jell on your stomach. You flinched every time; she looked around for your babies. Her eyebrows bunched together.

You: What is it?

She shook her head: Hold on!

You and Harry both exchanged worried looks; he held your hand tighter waiting for the doctor to come back in. What was going on? You looked at the ultrasound and both of your babies were still their moving. What could possibly be going wrong...?

The doctor rushed in the room, he was out of breath by the time he got to you...

You: Doctor what is it?!

He didn't answer you. Harry picked him up by his smock and threw him against the wall. You jumped up screaming at Harry to stop.

Doctor: Can you give me a few minutes?!

Harry backed off letting the doctor look at your kids; he stopped moving around the device and looked at you.

Doctor: You need to do an immediate C-Section or…

You nodded before he could finish. Harry walked out in the hall with him; he came back in a few minutes later. He had dark circles under his eyes, he looked like complete hell. Harry grabbed your hand and kissed it, you heard him whimpering.

Harry looked up: Please don’t do this to me.

You: Do what?

Harry: Make me loose you.

You: You aren’t loosing me completely.

Harry: How am I not?

You: Darcy… Benjamin. They’re both a piece of me… A piece of us.

You heard Harry whimper harder, he dropped your hand and left the room. You lay in bed and rubbed your stomach. It awful knowing in a few hours you might not be breathing. You felt tears rolling down your face.

You knew what you wanted to do… What you had to do. You always tried to be a strong person, but right now you were sick to your stomach with fear. You felt like you were suffocating in it. You wanted nothing more to see your children grow up and become the people they wanted to be. Watch them eat their first meal, first steps, words, smiles, giggles, school, talent shows, doctor appointments, their first everything.

You felt like it was your fault, like you let them down. They would have to go everyday without their mother there with them.

You started to sob, your whole life you thought you would grow up, get married, have kids, and live happily ever after. You never expected your life to be like this. Going on your first date with Harry Styles, losing your virginity to him, getting pregnant with his twins, and getting it all taken from you like it was never yours.