Different

chapter 9

EMMA

I called Killian after work informing him that I needed to speak to him urgently. He sounded pretty nervous by the fact that I wasn't my cheery self and when I ended the phone I didn't say I love you like I always did.

I waited in the diner fiddling with my fingers and tapping my foot violently against the table legs trying to take my mind off what I was going to do...crush his heart...but this was the right thing...isn't it?... I mean I don't feel love towards Killian anymore, its Regina.

I continued to fiddle with my fingers when the bell from the door echoed through out the hole of the diner and made me snap my head upwards to see if it was Killian...it was...Oh crap.

"You wanted to speak Love?" He said speed walking over to me, quite concerned. I nodded not meeting his gaze because I know if I did I would break down...His eyes where what I fell in love with first and if I look into them it would kill me to see that joy fade away. "Love, is everything okay?" he spat out with a cocked head and his voice cracking. "Killian...I don't know how to say this...I-" I began to say but tears trickled down my face instead. He laced his hands over mine "It's okay love, what's wrong...you can tell me...I love you" He said with such a pure heart. My heart ached at that and right then I wanted to tear my own heart out and crush it right there...

We where silent for a solid five minuets. Killian's hands still over mind trying to give me comfort but instead it just hurt. I broke the silence. "I don't love you anymore...I'm sorry" I blurted out wanting this moment to just be over already because every second was killing me. I looked up finally meeting his gaze...He removed my his hands from mine and stood up not linking eye contact with me. Not a word was said. He just walked off. Nothing. No anger no tears no...nothing. "Killian wait-" I chased after him. "Emma you have told me what you feel and that's all I need to know...I loved you" He said surprisingly really calm...I loved you...ouch...I watched him walk into the direction of the docks...his safe place...I felt like such a jerk...an asshole even...what have I done...how do I know for real that this with Regina what ever we have...will work?...I collapsed to the ground crying all my heart out until I could cry no more...until all my tears where used up.

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I wondered through the park to see if I could find Regina as I knew she comes to the park every Friday afternoon...she liked the fresh air I think she said that's why she comes here. I finally caught sight of her and I also see another figure next to her. I squint my eyes to make out the character and...No it couldn't be...Robin?

I jogged over to them when I was only a few meters away I saw Robin pull Regina into a kiss...I wanted to punch him so hard...but then I realised Regina wasn't even pulling away...What?...after all I've risked. I felt my blood boil with anger as I watched Robin pull away and smirk at me. Robin had resumed his jog I believed and that's when Regina met my angered state... "Emma?" she says with a cracked voice taking a step forward and I try to avoid her by taking a massive step backward as if she where a disease..."Emma I-"she began. "I broke up with Killian...For you" I hissed cutting Regina off for what ever she was going to say. I looked at her with disgust and hurt before I stormed off from the way I came.

To think I liked that woman...