The Bully's Sister

Breathing But Not Living

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When someone you love dies it doesn’t just hurt, it paralyses you, sends terror and unimaginable pain through every part of your body. The fact that you’ll never see them again , hear their voice, see their smile, hold their hand sends you into a living nightmare with no escape. You wonder whether there’s any point in trying, living, breathing and that you should just put the wand to your heart and eradicate yourself from the earth. At least that way you would be with your loved one. But then who would you be hurting by doing that? Who would you be killing inside by your selfish act? The harsh part is that death is a never ending vicious circle. The initial death isn’t the worst part, (well maybe it is; realising that the person you loved so much had gone through such pain before having their existence ripped away from them) it’s the acceptance that comes with it. Acceptance. What a joke. How can you accept that someone you would die for will never take another breath, walk another step , say another word and will never tell they love you and that they won’t hear you say ‘I love you’. Its impossible to accept. And that’s exactly how Jane Malfoy felt at this precise moment.

Cedric’s parents had reached his body and they too cried over his dead body. The whole crowd was silent , watching Cedric’s closest mourn over him. The faint sound of Cornelius Fudge shouting “Cedric Diggory dead” as if it was some great news fluttered into Jane’s ears. Jane felt several pairs of hands around her waist , trying to pull her away from her Cedric, but she didn’t want to be away from him , it would kill her “NO,NO,NO” she screamed as she was pulled away from Cedric. Through her tears she could see three different streaks of red, a white blonde head and a face she would recognise anywhere ; Blaise Zabini. She held her arms out to her big brother like a little baby wanting its mummy , who settled her onto his lap and rocked her slowly, trying to make the nightmare go away. She clasped onto his neck and sobbed into his chest. He kissed her forehead, hating seeing his little sister in so much pain and a new feeling settled inside his heart. Fear. The Dark Lord was back , and Jane was fourteen only a year until she would be turned into a death eater. He turned to face Blaise and gestured for him , Blaise rushed over and without words knew what Draco meant. He immediately started rubbing Jane’s back, which quickly soothed her and she leaned back him into , he hugged her closer desperate to make the pain go away. Jane heard footsteps approaching them , “Mr Malfoy, Mr Zabini could I ask you to escort Miss Malfoy back to Gryffindor tower?” she recognised the usually strict but now soft voice of Professor McGonagall “How are we going to get her in?” Draco asked

“Oh , Miss Weasley would you go open the portrait, take Miss Malfoy up to bed and come find me if she goes into any hysteria.” Draco and Blaise stood up and then picked Jane up between them , “NO, NO ,I’M NOT LEAVING HIM” she screamed , she couldn’t leave him , out here for everyone to see , vulnerable, she had to protect him. The two boys struggled taking her up to the castle , Ginny was leading the way , her face a mixture of shock and deep sadness for her best friend. The castle was like a ghost, eerie and silent and three people who usually hated the sight of each other were united in helping their loved one upstairs. Jane was crumpling both physically and mentally , she couldn’t understand what was going on , nothing made sense , she needed Cedric more than anything , he was so good that he didn’t make her a feel as if she was a bad person. With Cedric everything was better , everything was happier and she felt so safe and warm like it was constantly sunny. The four of them rounded the corner and now faced The Fat Lady who look astonished at the sight of Jane and her eyes filled with pity and without Ginny having to say the words opened the portrait and said the to the two boys “Only today” as she gestured for them to go in to the common room. The boys looked a little hesitant but saw Jane’s hurt face and quickly went into the unknown. They gazed around the gryffindor tower before quickly focusing their attentions on Jane. “I don’t want to leave her” Draco said more to himself than anyone else