Being Mute

Chapter 21 ❤️

I woke up with, starring at the window across from the room. The curtains were open and outside it was cloudy, looking like a storm was going to come.

I stood up and got dressed for school.

The events from yesterday still confused me. Miles was acting kind of crazy and I wasn't sure how to even put together what he was saying. He started out with; "I love you" which I'm not sure if he meant, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to know what he meant.

If he did mean it, than that would literally change everything for me. And my relationship with Dylan would maybe be ruined because if Miles did really mean it, I think it would make me- well make me think about him more and well- if he asked me to be with him, I would most likely say yes.

And I known it's stupid of me because a huge part of me really likes Dylan but when you're mate actually might want you, well it changes a lot! And I don't even know why I'm thinking about all of this because I might be completely wrong!

But I just can't get it out of my head. He said "I love you" so blankly with little to none emotion and yet it means literally the world to me. I can't stop thinking about it over and over again. I can hardly think or sleep.

I finished getting dressed and waited patiently for Shane to drive me to school. I wasn't really aloud to walk out of my room unless I was told to. I'm practically in a prison here. I'm not sure why Miles is so strict with me or why he even cares about me leaving, but he does. And he keeps me in these room practically everyday.

Luckily today was a school day meaning I'd get to see Dylan. My relationship with Dylan doesn't exactly run smoothly with Miles in the way. I've never told Dylan that I have a mate and he so happens to be Miles.

I'm too afraid of how he'd react. So I just keep it a secret and tell him that my parents are super strict and I'm not aloud to date so I do it behind their back.

Which seems to work, he seems like he believes it. So I'm happy. I'm happy that even though being here with Miles utterly sucks, I still have Dylan who takes me away from him. A guy that treats me better than my own mate does. But I will admit that I don't consider Miles as a mate anymore. A mate doesn't treat you like this, so he isn't my mate, he's closer to being the person I hate most in this world than my mate.

But it hurts just thinking that. Me and Miles are so far apart, he's so different from me. He's cruel and mean and a complete jerk. Where as for me, I try to be as nice as possible, I kill a fly and I feel bad!

Miles just- well Miles isn't someone you can change. It feels like there just isn't any hope for him. There's no point on even trying to change someone that can't be changed.

Not that I'm trying to change Miles. At this point I don't want anything to do with him. He's too confusing in his own way and well, Miles already practically rejected me in a way. He's told me that he doesn't like me and although apart of me knows that this "mate bond" has kind of changed how he feels about me, he'll always be the same person he was when I first met him.

Just a mean guy that I hate. I can't quite imagine a Miles that is nice, because he'll probably never be that. Maybe I'm just thinking too much about this.

I need to get him out of my mind. I need to be around someone that makes me completely forget about Miles.

Dylan.