Being Mute

Chapter 32 ❤️

Well, I felt depressed. It felt as if there was nothing here for me. Dylan was no longer in my life, Miles was always going to be his same old self, and Christian and Jenny have a life of their own.

As for me, I felt useless. There isn't anyone for me. I think I have to talk to Miles about going back with my aunt. He can't keep me here any longer! I don't want to be here either. I hate it here.

Everything reminds me of Dylan and what happened between us, and it reminds me that Miles doesn't want me and that I'm not supposed to care about that but I do.

I just- I need to leave here. I need to go off and find something else to do with my life, maybe get a job or something to distract me from this god awful place and what happened here. I seriously want to forget about the time I spent here. I want to resume my life with my aunt, finish school over there or something, anything!

Miles hadn't said much to me since the day I cried in his office about Dylan. The day he said some really nice things to me that made my heart flutter. I hated that fact too. I wish- well I wish Miles wasn't the person he is. For many reasons too!

He's mean, an honest jerk that I hate. But- well it's obvious that Miles has a sweet, good side to him. He's nice on the days he wants to be. He knows how to be sincere, well when he wants to. And the part that I hate most about him, is that he knows me. I don't even know how, but he really knows me. I was in the middle of walking half way to Miles office to talk to him, but then turning back around after I had second thoughts about it.

I went back and forth to his office and back, trying to decide what to do or how to approach him.

Finally, I took a deep breath and knocked on his office door. He took a few seconds to answer, but he did. He opened the door, standing there in front of me. He suddenly seemed taller, looked way more intimidating too!

He wore a gray t-shirt and dark jeans. He didn't look bad, he actually was dressed pretty normal. He always seemed to dress formally. "Hey." I wave at him awkwardly, unsure how to talk to him.

I don't even talk to him much at all. I mean sometimes I do, but for the most part, we don't talk.

"Hi, Jane." He gave me what seemed like a forced smile, although I couldn't be sure. And I also wasn't sure why it would be forced?

"Can I come in?" I ask. He nods, moving to the side to let me walk into his office. We walked little ways into his office. I didn't exactly want to sit down so I turned towards him, biting my lip. "I have something I want to talk to you about," I announce, trying to sound as bold as possible.

But how can I be bold in front of someone I felt beneath?

"Okay?" he crossed his arms narrowing his eyes at me. I didn't think he could look any more intimidating than he already was. I guess I was completely wrong.

"Well, I've been here for almost a year, it's been a long time and I still- well I still don't exactly know what I'm even doing here. I mean li-" Before I can finish my rant, the door burst open.

Miles' head snapped towards the door, glaring at the guy who had just walked in. "Sorry sir- I just have some news for you." The guy said, sounding super apologetic. Miles sighs. "Give me one second." He murmurs to me, moving his head to the right, motioning me to just sit down. I did so, awkwardly might I add.

"What is it, Vic?" I can hear Miles ask the guy. "Sir there's another pack on our territory." The guy whispers in a very low voice to Miles.

"What?" Miles sounded confused and I wondered why. I mean he's an alpha and has been one for a long time, so why was he confused now?

"A pack has crossed our territory." He says. "A whole pack?" Miles asks.

It dawned on me then. Miles had probably never been attacked before. No alpha was stupid enough to. Most alpha's tried forming allies with him.

I hesitantly decided to step in the conversation.

I turned in my seat towards them. "Your pack is being attacked," I whisper before tucking my lip in my mouth. He turned to me, eyes narrowed, still looking intimidating as hell.

"What?!" He turned to what I'm guessing now, is his beta.

I didn't know he had a new one. I mean I know his last one died.

"I already sent out some pack members. I warned most of the surrounding pack to stay inside as well." He murmurs. "Good, I'll be down in a second." He motions with his hand for his beta to leave. He did leave in a hurry, probably trying to get the hell away from Miles. He seemed like a good beta, but I think Miles needs one that isn't so scared of him.

"Jane, is it okay if we finish this conversation later?" Miles asks, his voice turning back to normal, not so stern.

I stood up, nodding. "What can I do to help?" I ask, trying my hardest to sound like I really wanted to help. I was capable of helping. I had gotten pack training back when my father was an alpha, well before he died.

Miles looked at me, looking dumbfounded by my question. "Help?" He asked, arching his eyebrow.

I nodded. He shook his head at me. "You can stay here." He said. I almost expected him to start laughing at me for even offering my help. Something about Miles not wanting me to "help" made me want to help a lot more.

"I'm not useless!" I point out, shrugging. "Jane, come on.." he shook his head at me. "But I can help Miles. I'm not new to these type of things." I shrug. "Jane! Please." He gave me a look that said he didn't want to discuss this.

"Fine, whatever. I'll stay here." I murmur.

"Look, I know you can help, I know you're stronger than the average guy in my pack. But I can't risk anything happening to you." He says, walking closer towards me. I nodded slowly starring at him.

My heart was fluttering, just starring at him like that. "Okay." I nod as he studied my face.

We stood there for who knows how long. I was unsure what to do but before I can even make my mind up, Miles did something completely unexpected. He stepped a little closer to me and leaned in. Before I can even process what he was doing, his lips were on mine, kissing me.

I was obviously very dumb founded. But something in me seemed to respond almost immediately. I kissed back, unsure what to do with my arms, I just let them stay in place.

But Miles grabbed my waist, pulling me very close to him. I had no other choice but to wrap my arms around his neck.

His lips moved in sync with mine, his lips tasted like some kind of peppermint gum. He smelt really good too. I couldn't help myself. I ended up playing with his hair as we kissed. I was in the middle of actually getting really into the kiss when he leaned away. I almost wanted to whimper. My stomach was exploding with butterflies and all I can think about doing is kissing him some more.. and more.

"I have to go." He whispered, leaning his forehead on mine. I was unsure of what had happened or why it had happened but God was I glad it happened.

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