Being Mute

Chapter 30 ❤️

This update is literally just a Thanksgiving gift from me to y'all!! So enjoy! I made myself write a chapter for y'all! Anyways Happy Thanksgiving and have a good one <3

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I sat on a random booth in the ice cream shop. The smell of sweet ice cream and sugar filled my nose. Although usually I would've been tempted to buy myself some ice cream, today was different. I felt dreadful. I felt as if I wanted to cry, but wasn't sure how to.

My heart hurt, I felt like there was nothing I can do about it either. My stomach hurt, my mind kept spinning, just trying to understand why the world hates me, what did I possibly do to have such bad luck?

First, my parents die- then I get to live with my aunt, after that, I find my mate who happens to hate my guts- who happens to hate me more than probably anything it seems like. Then when I finally see a glimpse of hope, it floats away, leaving me stranded and broken. Only thing is, it didn't float away, it just wasn't even there.

I bite my lip, looking out the window as the sun went down. It was around 6 already, I'm sure I probably would have to go back home, to Miles soon.. Ugh.

"Jane?" I look up, seeing Christian towering over me. "Uh, hey." I give him a forced smile. He smiles back, sitting across from me in the booth. "What are you doing here?" I ask. "Miles called, he was wondering where you were so, I and Jenny told him you were with us." He shrugs.

I narrow my eyes at him. "Thanks, I'm sure if Miles heard I was off doing god knows what, he would've been mad." I murmur, looking out the window once again. "Are you okay?" He asks. "Yeah, why?" I look at him. "Well, I know you went to see Dylan." He says.

I look down, taking a deep breath in. I felt worse than ever before. I hadn't ever felt so hopeless in my life. I felt like I was sinking and literally nothing kept me from doing so. "Yeah.. It wasn't the best idea." I whisper. "I'm sorry Jane." He whispers. "You've been through a lot, with everything and everyone. With Miles- and then Dylan." He shakes his head.

"I don't know how you even go through the day without breaking down a million times. You're a really strong person Jane." He says with a slight smile on his face. "Thanks. I didn't think so myself."

"Well, everything will turn out alright Jane-" He looked as if he had something to say, but he stopped mid-sentence. I was suddenly curious, wondering what he possibly wanted to say. "and?" I ask. He shakes his head. "Well, you can't get mad but I have a- well a different point of view from you, sometimes I see things that maybe you don't." He shrugs.

I narrow my eyes, feeling a little confused on what he was trying to tell me. "What do you mean?" I ask. "Well, in your perspective, Miles hates you, he wants nothing really to do with you. But, what I see is Miles doesn't completely hate you, if he wanted nothing to do with you, you wouldn't have been living with him for as long as you have." He bites his lip.

"My point is, I think if anything, Miles is getting used to you. Adjusting and seeing what he really wants, which is you." I look at him as if he was insane. There was no way in hell that Miles, the meanest person I know, is getting used to me, want me! That's just insane! It isn't possible and never has been since I met him!

"You're crazy." I shake my head at him. He laughs a little. "I mean come on Jane. Don't you think that if Miles really did, completely hate you, he wouldn't want you living with him? Dragging you half way across the country so you can?!" He shakes his head. "He obviously felt a connection for you from the start, to take you away from Kelly like that- he wanted you from the beginning but- there are things about Miles that you just don't know." He shrugs. "Like what?"

"Just reasons to why he's so stand-off-ish. He just never expected to find his mate and well- now that he has, he obviously doesn't know how to deal with her. How to show her his true feelings without being a complete and utter douche in the process." He shakes his head.

So what he was saying is that he thinks that Miles actually has true feelings for me? It seemed really far off. It didn't seem realistic in any way possible. Like at all! I just- I don't even think it's true even though Christian was making some good points. I shake my head at him. "Maybe you are right, and I'm not saying that you are.. But even if you were, it doesn't matter. Miles has put me through so much, I don't even care about him."

He sighs, frowning at me. "Think what you want, but I can almost assure you that you do care for him, even if you don't want to." He stands up. "Miles called looking for you, so just to reassure that you're alive and safe, you should probably head home." I bite my lip, nodding.

With that Christian walked out of the ice cream shop, leaving me with my thoughts.

Head home? I didn't consider Miles house to be "home" it has never and will never be that. Home is a place you feel comfortable in, comfortable being yourself and comfortable being there in general. That house isn't my home, more like a prison.