"He makes me feel whole. It's either both of us, or neither of us."
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in which Seungmin tries to fix Hyunjin.
➖Trigger Warnings: talk of depression, verbal abuse and physical abuse, drugs, talk of starvation and...
Seungmin had been gone for a while, and I was beginning to get just a tiny bit worried. I knew he could handle himself, but it's just those instincts that kicked in I guess that made me start walking down the hallway towards the way he left.
I found him halfway down the hallway, walking very slowly back to the lunchroom. He looked distraught, confused, and most importantly...fucking angry. I could feel myself walking quickly towards him, even though my mind said to turn back and let him have some alone time. My heart said otherwise, once again, and I ended up stepping up to him.
"Seungm-" I began to call, but then was rounded on quickly. The red-head turned around quicker than I've ever seen anyone turn around before and looked me dead in the eyes, shooting daggers at me with only his eyes and nothing else.
"Why did Jeongin just have a mental breakdown to me about you?"
I paused and then looked at him slowly, blinking and swiping my black hair out of my face. I didn't really know what to say to him... stuff had happened in the past, but I thought Jeongin was mainly over it. He seemed to be real happy nowadays, but I guess that it's just a cover-up. I wiped the newly formed sweat from my brow and began to speak upon realizing that he wanted an answer.
"I...Seungmin, listen-" I began, but obviously, the adorable boy that I knew was gone. He was replaced by an enraged boy who made me nervous with only his eyes. Those eyes of his...usually they were so bright and beautiful and I could easily get lost in them with just one look. But today, they were cold and unwelcoming, a mass amount different from the usual.
"I want to know everything that happened between you two. I need to know what I'm setting myself up for," a growl rips through his throat and I nod slowly.
"Fair enough..." I say and then look around. "C-Can we... not do it here though?"
"Where else do you want to do it, Hyunjin? Lunch is almost up, we don't have anymore classes together. But I have every single class except fourth with Jeongin, so you might wanna clear yourself up now," he demands. I wasn't about to confess all the shit that happened to me and him right then and there though, so I shook(y) my head at him.
"Listen, I'll meet up with you after school, wherever you wanna go, but please, not here, not now," I told him and almost shrank a little bit in submissiveness, which is not something I did easily. I may have been submissive for like two years, but that's beside the point. I became kind of a hard-ass after the whole Jiyong and Kris situation.
There was a large pause from my red-headed crush and I looked up at him, just to make sure he didn't malfunction or something because I had no clue how to restart computers and shit.
"Fine," he finally said and sighed heavily. "Meet me in the back of the parking lot right after school. If you're not there... it's over," he said with a finalizing tone in his voice and I knew that I had to be there. I was too deep to lose him this far in the game. At this point, he was my only friend. Changbin and those two other pricks left me and Jisung apparently flew off of the edge of the radar. He was nowhere to be seen.
"Okay... right after school, back behind the parking lot, got it," I repeated and he grumbles and stalks away, leaving me just standing there for the second fucking time today.
In this moment, older me would've blown up on him for demanding stuff like that to me. But this kid had some type of damn spell on me to where I got flustered and my hard-ass impression broke every time I was around him.
Not that I'm complaining, I get flustered usually for a reason around him and those moments are what I cherish most at this point.
I've said 'at this point' fifteen million times, but...at this point, he's the only thing I have anymore to keep holding on.
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A/N:
Seungmin said fuCK
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