✔️ Big Darkness Man (Sequel)

eighteen◾️hyunjin

After about another week, I was released from the hospital and sent back into hell; school...and my own home.

Well, I would be in my own home if it wasn't for Seungmin's mom taking me in. I guess the red headed boy I love dearly told his mom what kind of dumb fucking situation I was in and she demanded that I move in with her. At first, I refused because it didn't seem right to move into her house. But after a few minutes of thought, I just wanted to be anywhere else but home, anywhere else. And if I was with Seungmin, it was even better.

So I packed up most of my shit and by the end of the week, I was walking home with Seungmin and riding the bus with him in the morning. Jeongin stopped sitting with Seungmin on the bus which really sucked because it made him sad, but then again, I really didn't want Jeongin to be anywhere near him if he was still spreading lies and shit about what really happened between us.

So I would sit with him on the bus everyday, and I could tell that even from the back of the bus where I used to sit and Jeongin had taken over, that the small dolphin boy was jealous of me. And I'm not gonna lie, it was kind of a good feeling to have people be jealous over me, especially because it was Jeongin.

Jeongin had distanced himself from everyone, even the friends at his table according to Seungmin. He didn't talk to any of them and only gave dirty looks to us when we passed by.

But that's alright because I migrated to their table. At first, Woojin and Chan, who's name's I actually know now, were very wary of me and now, were talking with me like normal people. It was nice to have friends again after those three assholes ditched me and Jisung went under the radar.

I've actually tried texting Jisung and even calling him multiple times and he hasn't replied any of the times I've tried to come into contact with him. Although I don't talk to Minho, I've heard that he's gone missing, like, actually missing. Jisung's supposed disappearance was bothering even me and even without going up to him and asking, I could tell that Minho was devastated about it. It made me think for about .2 seconds on whether or not I should approach him and maybe reconcile the playful harmony we had between all of us.

And so that's exactly what I did. It was lunchtime one fateful day and I guess in my mind, I just broke and suddenly, I stood up and sighed heavily.

"I'm gonna go talk to them," I heard myself say, and the three others at the table looked up at me quizzically.

"Huh?" Seungmin said with a mouthful of corn and it made me smile a little, but only for a second or two before my straight face was back.

"Minho, Changbin, and Felix... it's been long enough and I need to fix this. It's been bothering me a lot lately, especially with Jisung's disappearance," I said, still standing because I was about ready to walk over to that stage where we all would sit even though the teachers wouldn't allow it.

Chan spoke up next, clearing his throat.

"Ah, Hyunjin...do you really think that's a good idea? I mean...I don't know. Based on what you've told us, it kinda seems like that friendship you guys had is still a little frayed," he said and although he had a point, I couldn't just stand here and watch my friend be depressed and down in the dumps and not try to do anything at least.

"Well, I've got to do something," I say and then start walking over there, hands in my black ripped jean pockets as I approach the three of them. "Changbin, Felix, Minho," I dipped my head respectfully, testing out the waters a little because I really wasn't sure how they felt about me.

"What do you want?" Minho spoke up, looking down at his shoes and then glancing up at me. Upon inspection, I could tell he was crying. Tear streaks stained his cheeks and his eyes were reddened. I paused for a minute, my guilt suddenly coming back to haunt me.

"Listen, I just wanted to say I'm sorry for...the fight and stuff. But I also wanted to say I'm sorry..about...Jisung. I know that's it's probably tearing you inside and out," I began, but was cut off by Changbin who had his fingers intertwined with Felix's.

"Since when do you ever say you're sorry?" Changbin spat, eyeing me up and down. "You've gotten soft. And I know why. You've been hanging out with Sunshine boy way too much. Hmph, pathetic," he grumbles and I feel my temper rise, but I take a few deep breaths and sigh, trying to calm down because I was here to fix the situation, not make it worse.

"Changbin, I'm really trying to apologize to you guys, I don't need any of your disrespect," I hear myself say and then look up at Minho, gesturing to the area next to him so I can sit. "May I?"

Minho just shrugs, his eyes empty, not filled with such joy that he used to have...because Jisung wasn't there beside him.

"I was such a hardass when I said all those rude things to you guys. I promise, I'm trying to change. And..if you don't want to accept me back as your friend, that's fine. I understand because what I did was shitty and low. But uhm...I can't, I can't just sit around and watch as Minho goes day in and day out looking empty and depressed as all hell, I wouldn't be the new me if I just stood around, I'd be the old me," I began to all three of them and Felix and Changbin were eyeing me up and down, as if they were debating whether or not I was trustworthy. But Minho on the other hand, he just sniffles and then very slowly turns to me.

"I appreciate you apologizing. That's all I've ever really wanted," he says hoarsely, wiping furiously at his tears. "So..we may not all trust you at this second, b-but.. I do forgive you and take your apology."

A little smile broke out onto my face. At least one of them forgives me, but I'm not too hopeful that Felix and Changbin will as they're still giving me dirty looks. I pause and look up at the two of them, my smile disappearing and a more serious expression arising on my face.

"I know you two still don't-"

"Shut up, Hyunjin.. we forgive you, but you're gonna have to make it up to us," Felix, who hadn't spoke this entire time, finally spoke up and I was relieved.

"Of course," I let out a sigh of pure relief and hop down off of the stage, gently patting Minho's shoulder because as much as I want to, I don't think he would let me hug him just yet. "It'll get better, Minho, I promise. Just..hang in there," I say before gently dipping my head to them and walking away like I'm a million bucks.

People, of course, looked at me weird as I walked back to the usual table because I was once the school's bully and they're surprised I didn't throw a punch or say anything entirely out of line which, come to think of it, is not a nice thing to be expected of.

I sit down and smile a little more and Seungmin grins at me upon seeing me happy.

"I suppose that it went well?" he asks and I look over for a split second at the three boys on the stage, and then smile a little more before answering.

"Yeah. It went well."

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A/N:

woah, an update??? crazy..
Yes, I'm trying to get back into the swing of things because I've realized that people really like my stories. It's been a bit busy lately, but I am definitely trying to make more time for this.
Big Darkness Man is very close to ending as well ;-;
BUUUT! I'm thinking of doing just a few chapters or so at the end...in Jisung's point of view. So lemme know if you wanna see that or not.
Uhhhh yeah, that's all I got I think maybe possibly.

Stay Cool 😎

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