I was extremely proud of Hyunjin for making progress. I knew that it would take a while for him to get back to normal, and failures were inevitable, but he was my Hyunjinnie, and I was willing to stick there and help him through anything he needed help with. Anything.
I had to go home after a while of course. I didn't want to leave Hyunjin, but I had stayed there overnight and needed to at least change and wash up a little before coming back. It still didn't change the fact that I was upset about leaving his side.
Hyunjin reassured me that he would be fine, but I wasn't so sure. I was just worried as the worst case scenarios played through my head like a music CD. The first song being titled "Death" on this made-up CD. I was just scared for him, scared that something would happen when I was gone and I'd come back to see a horrible outcome of some sort. Damn you anxiety.
But eventually, I did leave and I went home, grabbed a new outfit which happened to be my Chimmy jammies and took a quick shower before changing into them. I wasn't going for anything really fancy, obviously. I was tired and there wasn't any reason to change into something more fancy. Once I took my shower, brushed my teeth, fixed my hair, and washed my face with acne medication, I walked out to our kitchen to see my mother who had driven me home.
She was sitting at the kitchen table and I just looked at her for a moment. She only sat there, never really moved all that much except for her back slightly moving as she breathed. I couldn't see her face, but I could tell from the little sniffles and the way every breath wracked her body that she was crying. I hated when she cried. It made me feel horrible if I'm being completely honest.
"Mom..?" I asked her gently and she looked up, locking eyes with me with a startled jump and then sniffling, wiping her eyes quickly as if it was a sin for me to see her crying.
"Oh, hi, Seungmin," she smiled at me, face blotchy and red from crying when she finally looked up at me.
"Why're you crying?" I gently asked her and she sighs just a little and looks away with an ashamed expression even though she really has nothing to be ashamed of. She's been through so much, so it's understandable for her to take a couple minutes and let all of it out.
"I was just.. I was looking through the photo albums, saw a few pictures of..of your dad," she says and wipes her incoming tears.
My father had died about five months before we moved. He was a Marine, got shot while on duty. It was devastating to us and I know my mom was absolutely heartbroken. She'd been having a hard time since then coping with my dad's death. But there wasn't much either of us could do. So for the time being, I just sat down with her and held my mom as she cried into my shoulder, trying her best to hide that she was sobbing.
Hwang pads up beside my mom and lets out an adorable whine, pawing at my mom's leg. He somehow knew she was upset and was there in an instant to be adorable. I cooed gently and watched my mom lift her head off of my shoulder and laugh softly, smiling at the puppy before picking him up.
She looked at me and smiled even more, petting Hwang.
And then, she said something I'll never ever forget;
"It's going to be alright, Seungmin. We'll get through these things together."
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