I'm Innocent( BWWM)

CH. 36 Stay with me

CH. 36 Stay with me

(Natasha POV)

I was sitting next to Damian, everything that just occurred had triggered me. We were just sitting with the other members of the group earlier, talking about things that had me recalling memories that had caused my body to shiver. It's always hard to get over the past especially if it's still affecting your future.

Especially if it's something that still hurts your present, just because you're living in the present doesn't mean you should forget the past and definitely doesn't mean you should forgive the people who had damaged you.

I was glad that man was dead, I was glad that he was finally taken away from this world and was no longer able to hurt anyone physically again. I say physically because this monster still had the ability to hurt people, although he is dead. His presence that he had left behind on others life was not a presence that could be easily taken away, it wasn't something that could be easily forgotten. It was something that would take many session, strength, and dedication to healing.

Something that was going to take me a while to get through, something that I was ready to make happen.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

I looked up to find Damian looking at me with a concerned look expression, I shrugged my shoulders letting out a sigh.

"The usual," I said, I watched as he slowly nodded his head, knowing what I meant by what I said.

"You handled that conversation pretty well though, the one we all had earlier." He said causing me to let out a chuckle, just because I really wouldn't call that handling it, I was having a war with myself in the inside earlier during the conversation, it wasn't anyone else fault and I knew for a fact that I needed to tame myself to handle certain situations where a sensitive topic like that could get brought up anytime.

"I really wasn't handling it well, but I'm glad it came off as if I was. I'm sure I'll be fine, one way or the other." I said and he nodded his head.

He looked to be in deep thoughts, I wanted to know what he was thinking about, yes I was curious. I knew it had something to do with me.

"What is it?" I asked him, causing his eyes to widen.

"I'm not sure I should ask." He said, causing me to shrug my shoulder.

"It's fine," I said, preparing myself to get ready for what he was going to ask me.

"I don't know what he exactly did to you, but I know for sure that it left a dent with you. I don't want to say it broke you or damaged you, but I feel like it did." He said.

"It's fine, I could imagine anyone would want to be curious about what I've gone through or what he did to me," I said, shaking my head.

"He did break me, he wanted me to be tamed by him, he wanted me to not be able to think on my own, to have a mind on my own and to just be his pleasure toy. So he broke me and tried to recreate me. The way he wanted to make me, there was no other way I could survive unless I did what he asked or commended me to do, trust me. I fought against it at first, I tried to look for many ways out of the situation but when I realized that I was no longer in a world I was able to have control in. I slowly stopped fighting back against him." I said.

"You know once, he's put me in a cage," I said Damian's eyes widened even more.

"I had upset him extremely badly, and he wanted to punish me. He threw me into a cage and in a cold voice, he said, this is 'This is what happens when you disrespect me, this is what happens when you get me mad. You need to learn the boundaries I put aside for you' he said to me while I was in the cage. It was something I didn't want to experience ever again so I made sure I never upset him to that point." I said, recalling the memories of the situation.

Damian stared at me, I already knew what the question was before he even opened his mouth and asked it.

"He had me in the cage for two days," I said, watching as his facial expression changed and his breath hitch.

"Fucking bastard." He said I said nothing as I rubbed my belly.

I could feel his stare still on me and refused to look up, I refused to make eye contact with him because part of me was scared of what I would see on his face, would it be a pity look? Would it be an angry facial expression?

I decided to change the topic, not wanting to discuss this or have this conversation anymore. At least not right now, maybe later on. I didn't want to admit to Damian yet that I found relief in talking to him, I found myself being able to tell him anything.

I was scared of this feeling and didn't understand it, I wanted to get to know it more before I actually admit out loud that maybe I feel like Damian is someone I would always be able to confined in.

"So, apparently we're going to be sharing a room?" I asked him, he looks stunned as if the realization just hit him that very moment.

I raised a brow curious on the fact that we honestly entered the same bedroom together, what else would he have thought?

"I didn't think about that, I honestly came in here because I was concerned about you that's all." He said and I chuckled.

"Well, there's not that many rooms here. Kevin and Tommy are for sure sharing a room, so is Kimani and Dean." I said, watching as his face turned a slight pink.

"I can sleep on the couch." He said I nodded my head agreeing.

"I don't mind us sharing a room together, honestly. To be quite honest, it feels safer having you near." I said, finding myself shock about the words that have left my mouth.

Damian looked at me even more stunned.

"Really? Then I'll stay." He said.

"Okay, well thanks for staying with me then," I whispered.

"Of course, yeah. I'll stay." He said softly.

I felt like he wanted to say something more but decided not to, maybe it was better that he didn't.

(*Kassandra Speaks*)

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-Kassandra Vivu