I'm Innocent( BWWM)

CH. 37 Sharing is fine

CH. 37 Sharing is fine

(Damian POV)

I was up, I couldn't sleep because I didn't know exactly what to do or even say.

Natasha was sleeping on the bed, the only bed in the room. She had offered me the bed but I turned it down, I told her I would be fine sleeping on the couch but she insisted on me staying in the room. Part of me wanted to know why, but when she mentioned that she felt safe when I was there. It made me want to stay, made me want to protect her even more because, for some reason, it just became a natural instinct.

I just couldn't leave her alone and neither did I want to, she has people out there looking for her. People that want to destroy her, protecting her is important to me. I wasn't going to let anyone hurt her or her baby.

A promise I am making to myself, to her and her baby. They will be safe. No matter what, I was laying down on a lazy boy chair that pulled out, which happened to be surprisingly comfortable. My eyes were still open and I know that I probably looked like a creep right now as I was just staring at the wall, taking glances at a sleeping Natasha.

I couldn't imagine what she has gone through and neither did I want to find myself imagining it either. Just from what she's told me I can tell what she has gone through was something on the verge line of evil.

Lost in my thoughts, a noise brought me back to reality. It was Natasha twisting and turning on the bed. Whimpers were coming from her mouth and I knew instantly that she was having a nightmare.

Her face formed a painful scared expression and my heart clench.

Should I wake her up? I needed to wake her up, she shouldn't be left alone to have these dreams when she was going through those things in reality. The one place she should at least feel safe in is her dreams, she should feel at ease while she sleeps. A little escape and knowing that she wasn't getting that right now left something with me.

I have to wake her up, I can't just let her go through that. Looking at her facial expression and the pain that was being shown on her face. I could tell that she wanted to be far away from what she was experiencing right now.

"Natasha," I said softly, getting out of my seat and making my way towards the bed. I saw the way her eyes were shut, a painful expression but she had a grip on the sheets that were covering her, her knuckles were turning pale letting me know that the grip she had on the sheets was a hard one.

I gently made my way closer to her, softly shaking her shoulder and trying to get her to wake up.

"Natasha, sweetie wake up. You're having a bad dream. Natasha, Natasha wake up." I said, her eyes opened and she looked at me with the saddest eyes I've ever seen and I don't know what came over me but I pulled her into my arms and gave her a hug.

I rubbed my hand on her back, comforting her and letting her know that I was here by whispering soft reassuring words in her ear. Telling her that I wouldn't let anything happen to her and that I would be here to protect her plus the baby.

"Natasha, are you okay? It was just a bad dream okay, please just know that I am here now, don't worry. You're not alone, I am here ok?" I said to her hoping she believed the words that were coming out of my mouth because I was telling her the truth. She was the type of person where you had to make it known that you meant what you were saying. I couldn't dare to see Natasha like this, I wanted her to feel at ease even in her sleep but part of me knew that she didn't even feel safe in her sleep. She probably never felt safe.

"You said I made you feel safe right? Well, I am here now, so please just feel safe around me, nothing is going to happen to you when I'm here okay? I will not let anything happen to you, I will try my best. Don't worry, you'll get through it okay?" I said to her, I wanted to get it in her mind that she has someone. It wasn't only me that was starting to care for her, but the others are starting to care for her too.

"It was a dream." She said causing me to shake my head.

"It was more like a nightmare than a dream. Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?" I asked her, wondering if she would even want to talk about it but I felt like maybe she wouldn't want to. I mean, I wouldn't blame her if she didn't feel like talking about a horrible dream she just had. Especially since she just woke up from it, it's not like she would want to relive the dream.

"I just had a dream that he was still alive." She said, sitting up and looking lost.

"By him? Do you mean Jeff? Natasha, it's okay he's dead. He's not alive okay?" I told her, reassuring her that horrible man was gone and wasn't going to show up. Her facial expression showed me that she heard what I was saying but it was taking her a while to process it.

"It just felt so real, like he was actually here. I felt him, I could feel everything that was being done to me in my dreams. It felt so real Damian." She said staring at me causing my heart to clench even more.

"He haunted me while he was alive, what if he starts haunting me even in his death, in my dreams. Why can't he just leave me alone?!" Natasha said talking to herself.

She was right, what Jeff has done to her not only haunted her through her life, but I was sure of it that she would suffer PTSD from it. Yes, she most likely will, the question is. How will she deal with that?

She rubbed her belly, her facial expression changed into determination.

"This child will know nothing about Jeff. " She said, I nodded my head agreeing with what she said, I'm sure no one would want their child to know the truth about their father if they were in that position.

Knowing a man like Jeff is related to you can disturb anyone.

No one should ever face such a thing.

"He's gone, he can't hurt you anymore," I said to her, I don't know if any of the words I was saying was being heard by her or not.

"He was a very evil man." She said sitting up and hugging herself.

"I know," I said softly.

"He stalked me before, that's how he knew about me. He kept tabs on me. He planned everything, on taking me and making sure no one would give a damn if I was gone. He's killed people to get to me." She said, I stared at her and watch her facial expression come off as a blank look.

She was detaching herself. She didn't want to feel anything that was caused by Jeff or related to Jeff.

"He has another child out there." She said, causing my eyes to widen.

(*Kassandra Speaks*)

Who should Natasha end up with

Tucker or Damian?

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-Kassandra Vivu