2. fight for happiness

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i used to let anxiety rule my life
until i learned that i had to fight
fight for the smile
i so desperately wanted on my face.
fight for the shrill giggle
that causes the entire room i'm in to smile.
i realized that if i didn't fight
for happiness,
for a stable mind,
then i wasn't fighting for the people
that i make happy,
my friends,
my family,
even people who have only known me online.
i realized that i was hiding this happiness i was given
because i didn't believe i deserved it
but that was selfish
and that was harmful.
so i'm waving my happiness
like a flag
because i'm happy
maybe not everyday
but i've worked hard to get here
and i'm not letting go again.

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