Torn from you

I beg of you

Thank you for all the nice comments,
Here is a longer chapter as promised :)

Also, I sort of made Arwen really evil in my last story 'forever but forbidden' and I felt bad so in this story, she is going to be really amazziiinnnnggggg!

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~previously~

"So it is simple to tell Gimli but not me? I would've helped you and I still Want to. Please"  we connected our eyes for a long while. I saw a debate going on inside his head and he opened his mouth to speak. "I-"

"Lassie? Legolas, I can't find Aragorn-" Gimli Why did you have to come in here now of all times?  "Oh hi, Aragorn I just wanted to see you. What are you talking about? You all look like ghosts" I growled and marched out of the room, shaking my head in the process "Aragorn?" I ignored his calls and carried on walking away to my chambers. To think.

He was about to tell me!

Or am I just overreacting? Was he going to tell me? Or was he just going to lay my hopes down?

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Arwen's PoV:

A silence filled the chamber, not awkward but not comfortable. We had all watched Aragorn walk away angrily as if it was a distraction from the current situation that we were now in.
Gimli being clueless was the first person to speak up "d-did I do something wrong?"

I looked at Legolas, concerned as he ignored Gimli's pleas for an explanation and sat at the edge of his bed with an expressionless stare that pierced into the wall of his chambers. I huffed and turned to face Gimli, my hair spinning around with me "can you please excuse yourself from the room, Gimli, I need to have a private conversation with Legolas"

"I know what this is about so you might as well let me stay, m'lady" shock filled me so he did know?

"You do?" I looked over at Legolas, he seemed to be uncomfortable and panicked about what just happened. I turned to face Gimli again with tear-filled eyes. "Why did you keep this a secret!? He could've died Gimli!"

"I only did it on his behalf, he doesn't want people to worry" Gimli said softly, the softest I have ever heard him talk to anyone. The gruff voice of the fierce creature was replaced with a soothing voice that a parent would speak to their child with.

I spun around to look at Legolas again as he carried on to stare into space. I kneeled down in front of him and held his hands firmly. His eyes glistened with pain-filled tears as he shifted his gaze towards the floor. "Why?"

He didn't answer. He hadn't said a word since Aragorn had left the room. I rubbed his hand soothingly trying to calm him down before he broke. My actions seemed to trigger something in him and his eyes welled with more tears before he gave up and let them spill. Letting all of the pain go.

Washing it away through his tears as they spilt helplessly from his eyes. The icy cold eyes that held so much behind them, the eyes that could keep a secret hidden for so long, those eyes that constantly observed the man of whom he loved. The man that I had stolen from him, oblivious to his pain as he suffered in silence for so many years. This is all my doing. How could I have been so blinded?

I pulled him into a bone-crushing hug that messed up his hair slightly. "I'm s-sorry Legolas, if I would have know how y-you truly felt about him then I would never have given him my evenstar, I would never have m-married him! I can't bear to see you like this, it is heartbreaking" I sobbed out as tears flowed down my cheeks. I felt so guilty. His hand rubbed my back soothingly and I felt his head rest upon my shoulder.

His angelic voice whispered in my ear, soothing me from my crying "Arwen, it is not your fault. You deserve him more t-than I do!"  The sound of our sobs echoed in the room, filling it with a depressing atmosphere "how did you figure it out anyway?"

Wiping the tears off my face with my sleeve, I sat up and looked into his empty eyes "I had one lost a friend to heartbreak. He began to fade and he never told me, he was in love with this elleth that had been killed in battle, when he found out the news he locked himself in his room for days and only when I gave up and opened the door one day...h-he was d-dead on the floor" I began to cry again "I ran to my father crying and confused, h-he explained everything to me about fading...Ada told me that they could only be saved from a confession, poor Edwren had no choice but to d-die"

Legolas looked down in sadness "I'm sorry"

"I miss him so much" more tears fell from my face and into the palms of my hands that were clasped firmly together with Legolas's.

"How did you know that it was A-Aragorn that I loved?" He asked curiously. His tears had vanished but were still visible from the stains on his cheeks where they had once spilt.

"Only someone who loves another as much as you could be saved from death by a simple touch of hands. Your body has been restrained from any form of contact with him for so long that you physically need him to survive. He is your source of energy, your heartbeat that flows through his veins. I have never known someone show so much love towards another than you have Legolas, not even me." I saw a light crimson shine on his cheeks as I put my head down in shame. "You love him, but I tore him from you. I threw so much love towards him that it broke your heart and now you are fading because of me. He didn't want to be with me anyone, he demanded that I kept the evenstar but I threw a blind eye and gave him it anyways and now because of me you are going to die! It's all my fault!" I cried out and pulled my hair with extreme pain in my eyes, not wanting to feel the world around me. Not wanting to look up into Legolas's face. Only feeling the grief that I had caused my friend as a new surge of tears spilt from my eyes.

"Arwen, like you said, you didn't know that I loved him. I don't blame anything on you, in fact, I never will. You love him more than I do and you deserve him, you deserve him more than anyone else on middle earth and he deserves you" he grabbed my wrists and forced me to look into his pleading eyes "Arwen listen to me, don't let me get in the way of your love for him. He loves you more than anything in the world and you should feel thankful for that. Please just be grateful that you have him, if not for yourself then for me. "Amin beg en' lle (I beg of you)" He stared into my eyes for what seemed like an eternity as various thoughts passed through my mind.

"O-okay" I chocked out. I felt my heart shatter for him and knowing that it was my fault didn't help.

"Promise me!" He yelled in a pleading voice that broke down all of my barriers covering my heart. You still love Aragorn. You cannot give him up. Listen to Legolas! The voice in my head told me.

"I promise!" I yelled back equally as loud. It was a lie! I don't want to love Aragorn anymore now that I know that my best friend will die because of me. He deserves Aragorn more than I do. I don't want to see another elf in my life die, even if it means giving up my love. My only love. My true love.

Silence filled the room once again and Legolas's hands let go of mine, making them fall into the bed below "hannonlle (thank you) Arwen" he whispered in a quiet tone and he stood up from the bed, leaving me a crying mess bundled up in his blankets. It was quiet for a mere moment before I heard Legolas speak again

"Gimli mellon nin, you have gigantic tears for such a small creature"

1414 words? Wow 😮 I really don't know how well I did this chapter, did it seem rushed or bad in any way? Pls, comment if I need to correct anything :)

I finally figured a good chapter name 😂