TRY HARD

Chapter 22

I put on a more sophisticated look. I wanna look and feel confident today. This is my chance to comeback strong.
"Are you ready?" Luke asks.
"Ya, I'll see you guys soon, be good Shay I love you" I give Luke and Shay kisses and turn to Harlow.
"Don't go crazy" I walk out the door and into my Audi, heading to the place Jada texted me. I park my car and take a deep breath. This is nerve wracking. I head in and see a bunch of people standing around.
"Delia!!" I see Jada walking over.
"We don't have much time so let's start right away." We get mic'd up and sit at the table together.
"Welcome to this last minute episode of red table talk. I'm Jada smith and I'm joined by none other then the Delia North. The centre of the media lately along with her boyfriend Luke Hemmings. Delia tell us how this happened. Tell us before tour. How did you meet?"
"Well we met in high school, I did a lab thing with Calum one time but I never really talked to them. I fell in with a different crowd. I did a lot of drugs and drinking and partying. After my mom passed away my dad just wanted time for me to be happy. He worked a lot and traveled so he never really saw what I did. I remember one day so clear. I saw Luke in a cafe the day I dropped out. Later we went to a tattoo shop and then the beach. I was a wild child. I became a fan of the band for a few years, never realized who it was before I went to their show in Sydney when Luke saw me."
"That's when this whirlwind of a relationship started"
"Ya he sang try hard to me which was actually written about me back in the day. A guard brought me backstage and I met up with Luke and he said we should hang out and he actually apologized for making money off a song that's about me. Well I shrugged it off and the next day we hung out all afternoon."
"In another interview you said your life was endangered. Did that happen next?"
"Ya I went home. A lot of stuff happened within the span of an hour. And someone said they were going to kill me. He said "mark my words I will kill you" and Luke looked at me and said "mark my words you're going to come on tour and be safe with me"" I say almost crying. It feels like Blaze was years ago when it was only two. My life changed forever.
"Was this person a friend?"
"Yea, or at least I thought"
"So then you went on tour. Were you and Luke a thing since the beginning?"
"No not really. We had this weird thing. We'd kiss and cuddle and stuff but we weren't together no matter how bad he wanted to be. Or how badly Michael wanted us to be." I laugh.
"Why not?"
"Well I told him I'm not the girl he wants. I'm not one you bring home to your parents and say 'look it's my amazing grlfriend'. I'm the one you come home saying 'That girl ODed in the school bathroom again.' But I finally said yes."
"And so you were dating" I nod.
"Ya we we're together until Oslo" I say.
"The juicy part. What happened in Oslo?"
"I was doing my makeup when he was in the bathroom. His phone went off beside me and I looked to see a girls name. Now he's a superstar, so he's gonna have girls numbers but. The message was saying when are you breaking up with that bitch. You said it yourself she's a slut. I opened his phone and saw pictures, texts and they were all very heart breaking to me. He called me names. She called me names. They sent pictures back and fourth. Ones I took of him. Ones he's sent me. It broke me."
"Did you know you were pregnant at this time?" I shake my head no.
"So what did you do with this information?"
"I was fuming, heartbroken, I felt betrayed by someone I loved. We had never truly said I love you. We've said it but it wasn't romantic and the true I love you. I heard him flush and he was coming out of the bathroom so I called her. I said he doesn't have to break up with the bitch cuz I'm breaking up with him. I've never seen him so sad and regretful. All the colour in his face drains and I hand him his phone and pack up. I gave the other guys hugs and stood in the door way and said I loved you. It was past tense" I say almost crying. I've tried my hardest to not relive this moment.
"I went home and a few days later I found out I was pregnant. Then a few weeks after that my dad passed away. I was a complete wreck. I wanted to drink and get back into drugs but my best friend Harlow stopped me and supported me"
"The other boys knew right?"
"Yea they were all there when she was born."
"So how was that first year without Luke by your side?"
"I wanted to tell him so so bad. It was hard seeing him in her. Her eyes and nose are exactly like his it's so cute."
"So I guess the next part is how Luke found out"
"He came to my house" I say blanetly.
"Just showed up?"
"Ya, it was kind of insane. He showed up figured out that she's his and now we're back together. Honestly don't even understand it myself. He came to apologize, 2 years late but still better late then never. He took one look at her and went. "Is she yours?" I said yes and he asked how old she was. He figured it out for himself."
"That's one whirlwind of a relationship." I nod my my head.
"Now one thing people also comment about a lot is your clothes, being a mom and wearing what you do, people don't agree"
"My style and my music taste and life is heavily influenced by my mom. She wore similar clothes. She was covered in tattoos and even though I knew her ten years. we were so close I listened to her sing all the time. I watched her draw. I wore her clothes and her heels. I loved my mom. She wore similar clothes to me. My clothes aren't anyone's business, me being a mother isn't represented by my clothes. I can't wear what I want without being called slutty. My clothes are what I like, what I feel confident in."
"Props to you girl. Is there anything else you want to say to viewers?"
"I love Luke Hemmings who IS the father of my daughter" I laugh a little.