TRY HARD

Chapter 17

"I'm fucking nervous as hell guys!!" I'm getting ready for the date with Luke. I put on my jewelry and fix up my hair.
"Don't be nervous, you know him really well" Crystal says.
"This is like my first real date!"
"You're 24!" She says.
"But all my dates end in us fucking each other's brains out!"
"Ok child is entering the room" Harlow says bringing Shay in the bathroom.
"But she's also not wrong. Her dates have all been hook ups. This is kind of a big deal" she says.
"Do I look ok?" I ask.
"You look amazing, you're hot, you're a model"
"Ok I need to meet him in 30 minutes. You're sure you're good with Shay?" I ask Harlow
"Yes I can take care of my niece" she says. Michael and Crystal are her legal god parents. I chose them because they're getting married, where as Harlow isn't ready to date anyone.
"Ok my baby" I pick up Shay and walk to the front door. I grab my purse and kiss her little cheek.
"Bye pumpkin I'll be back soon"
"Bye hottie, have fun" Crystal says.
"Wave to mommy" Harlow says. I smile and get into my Audi. I drive to the location Luke texted me. It's a fancy restaurant I've never been to before. I see him at the door when I pull up.
"Hello gorgeous" he kisses my cheek. I put my arm in his and walk inside.
"Table for Hemmings" he says.
"Right this way" she leads us into a back room. The table has roses in the middle and candles.
"Awe lukeeee" I say looking at it.
"Only the best for you" he says. I take out my phone and take a picture, putting in my Instagram story. We take a seat and a waiter brings us water.
"So what have you been up to?" He asks.
"Well I'm working for a modelling company called Model Co. I've been quite busy with that and then of course Shay." I say smiling.
"She's so beautiful" Luke says.
"She is, the day she was born I just wanted to call you and tell you you're a dad"
"Honestly I'm glad you didn't. I think I would have gone even more crazy. I was so....not myself. I was drinking so much and I never went out with the boys. And I know you know Thursdays are for the boys" I laugh.
"I love hearing you laugh"
"I love you Luke"
"I love you too. I can't even describe how you make me feel"
"I'd say you could come home tonight but Shay" I say.
"Ya, is she gonna know I'm her dad?"
"Of course, I want things to go back to way they were"
"Does that mean we're back together?"
"Do you wanna be?"
"I want to kiss you everyday and tell you both how much you mean to me. I want to wake up in the morning and have you next to me. I want to scream at the top of my lungs that you're mine and only mine" 
"You won't cheat again will you?" I ask shyly.
"No, never. I don't know why I did in the first place. I've changed so much since then"
"Well I haven't. I'm still the dorky red hair broken bad girl"
"Did you ever get that new tattoo?"
"Uh actually I'm going tomorrow to get a few new ones"
"Really? Awesome"
"Ya, also I think you should know my dad died, he had a heart attack a few weeks after I got home. He left me a lot of money and the house. Also, who would you want Shays godfather to be?"
"Well I think I'd choose Michael, he's almost married and is responsible so"
"That's what I thought, him and Crystal are her godparents"
"I can't believe he kept that from me."
"I'm sorry, I told them I'd cut them off if you knew"
"Makes sense then."
"And she calls the boys uncle."
"She does?"
"Well it's more like Uhuh right now but" I laugh.
"I can't wait to see her grow up"
"Why don't you come over tomorrow, you can bond with her"
"I'd love that" we spent the night talking about everything.
"So Luke, I'll see you tomorrow at 10"
"I wouldn't miss it"
"Thank you for tonight"
"Thanks for giving me a chance" he leans forward and kisses me.
"I'll see you tomorrow" I open the door and close it, leaning my back against it.
"Well?" I hear Crystal say.
"Why are you still here?!" I say taking off my shoes.
"I'm here too" Mike says from behind her. I shake my head as Harlow comes in.
"Well we're back together. And I know I may end up screwing myself over but, I love him" I sit down and sigh.
"How was Shay tonight?"
"She was good, went right down" Harlow replies.
"I also owe you beer" Mike says.
"You guys always drink my beer" I say grabbing my phone. Luke posted a picture of him at dinner tonight. I like it and move on.
"Do you think Delia and Luke will ever get back together? I miss them. Luke was so much happier and she kinda fell off the face off the earth except for a few public photo shoots" I smile a little.
"It's almost 11, we should get home to the dogs" Crystal says.
"Ya we should, I'll see you guys soon" they leave.
"I'm gonna go to bed too I'll see you in the morning. Also Luke will be coming over tomorrow." I walk upstairs to my room and sit on my bed. I look at my nightstand with a picture of a smiley Luke, me and our daughter. I photoshopped it together when she was first born. I guess I'll have a real one soon. Next to it is the picture of my mother.
"Goodnight mom"