TRY HARD

Chapter 18

"Ok you guys are good for the day? There's enough milk in the fridge and you know where everything is and stuff so"
"Mommy you should go and get what you've been waiting for hahahahah" Harlow says in a baby voice, pretending it's Shay talking.
"Ok ok, bye baby" I kiss Shays cheek and then stand up to face Luke.
"Be good" I say.
"I will, I can wait to see them" he says. I kiss his cheek and grab my purse, heading out the door. I get into my car and head to my tattoo appointment. I park at the building and enter.
"Hey, you ready?" Jason says.
"Ready I've been ready for like two years." I say setting my stuff down. It took us until around 6 to do all 6 pieces.
"You have such a high pain tolerance my gosh" he says as I hand him the money.
"And I'm surprised the company is letting you do this."
"Well I have a little hiatus for the next few months and I can cover them with foundation so" I say goodbye and head back home.
"Oh my goodness I missed you my sweets" I say grabbing Shay from Lukes arms.
"Did you have fun with daddy? And auntie Harlow?" I say holding her above my head.
"We did have fun. Harlow even left to get food and we were all good here"
"That's good, did you make dinner?"
"Yea it's almost ready" Harlow says.
"Now let me see the tattoos!!" I hand Shay to Luke and show them my new artwork.
"These are gorgeous! Did you design them?"
"Ya, I draw a lot, that's what I did during my pregnancy" I say pulling down my shirt.
"Do you still have them all?" He asks.
"Ya of course they're in my room." Take him into my bedroom and pull out my drawings from the desk drawer.
"I'll let you look through. I'm gonna go feed her" I walk down the hall to her nursery and sit in the rocking chair.

"Luke." I ask while we eat the pasta.
"Ya"
"Who was she?"
"We don't have to do that.." he responds.
"I don't want to go without that information. I don't like being left in the dark."
"I met her through Roy English. She took some photos for him and I don't know we hit it off and she started texting me and things spiralled. Now what are we gonna do about that little cutie and the spotlight?" He says pointing to Shay sitting in her high chair eating a few peppers.
"I was hoping you'd bring it up so I didn't have to. It's your choice. But. Either she's in it or she's out of it. I want to be seen with you, I really do but that means having my baby with me. Choose wisely" he takes a deep breathe.
"If you want we can set up an interview just as normal and someone will ask if I'm single then I can say no, then tell them about Shay" I nod.
"That'd be perfect."