My last gift

In the bedroom

(Jin's POV)
I turned around with my head down, not wanting to show my red, puffy eyes from crying.

'Y-yea?..', I said trying to make my voice as calm as possible.

I heard his breath hitched and he asked
'I-is that b-blood on your wrist?', that came out in a stutter.

My eyes widened and I swiftly hid my hand behind me, i looked up to him.

'N-no, it's just the sh-shirt.', i lied, i forgot to wash up before coming upstairs.

I opened the door and was about to exit but stopped as i felt an unbearable pain shot from my wrist.
I looked behind to see namjoon grabbing my wrist harshly.
I let out a small whimper gaining attention from My boyfriend.
He slowly looked back down and lifted my sleeves.

Regret, sadness and pity displayed his eyes as he saw my newly fresh cuts.
'D-did you cut yourself?..'. he asked with a worried voice.

I was gonna answer when the expressions on his face faded away within less a minute to only be replaced with a smirk.
He suddenly yanked my arm down making me lose my balance and fall down.

'What-', I couldn't believe he just did that to his boyfriend, all the love and care is just gone like that?..

'You're such an attention whore', he said not even caring what exited his mouth.
'What?.., how could he..' i looked up at him in disbelief, it was like he was a whole new person, not the sweet namjoon i knew.

I stood up and slapped hard on his face, this was it, it was time to share some of the pain i had carried all along just for his sake.
'I am not an attention whore! I cut myself to share my feelings from something. I didn't want to be a burden to you , so i had to let it all out by myself!', ' i am not an attention whore and i never will be, KIM NAMJOON!',
and with that, i left the room in disappointment and disbelief.

I slammed my door and locked it, not wanting to grab more attention. I slid down the door and plopped on the ground.
Tears again streamed down releasing out of my control.

'Why?' 'Why am i the only one that has to cry?'
'Why am i the one to be the weakest in the end?' '
Stop crying seokjin-ah, let's rest, you must be tired'

I wiped away my tears and cleaned myself and laid on the bed to slowly drift off into a
deep slumber.

(Meanwhile, namjoon's POV)

'It was too much, i was too harsh on him.'
'Im sorry jin-ah, it's only for your sake.'
'I don't want you to feel sad in the end.'

I sighed and looked over to the man sitting on the edge of the bed , half naked, waiting for me to fuck him.
I walked over to him and i hovered above him.
He bit his lip in a seductive way.
He closed his eyes as i leaned down towards his lips.

Instead, i went near his ear and whispered.
'You should go, get out and leave.', i commanded.
He opened his eyes and whined in annoyance as i stood up and fixed myself.

'B-but you told me you would fu-', he was cut off short by me shouting at him.

'I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT!', i said as I threw the money at him.

'Here's your money, now leave!', he gathered himself and left the room like a scared cat.
I let out a heavy breath as tears escaped my eyes.

'I'm sorry Jin-ah, I'm sorry i had to hurt you..'
That was what i said before my eyes close shut bringing me to another different world.