My last gift

Namjoon's POV

I woke up to a loud thud that came from Jin's room.
I looked around and saw that i was no longer in bed, i was in the hallway.
I became worried and rushed to Jin's room.
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The sight was frightening.
A sweaty, pale figure of jin laid on the ground. Beside him was a bottle of pills, and many white long pills scattered all over the floor.

I ran to him and lifted him up onto my lap.
I shook his arm with a bit of force trying to wake him up.

He was unconscious of his surroundings.
'Jagiya! Wake up.. please jin?..'.
At this point, i was already bawling my eyes out like a little child who was lost.

'Im sorry, jin-ah! I didn't meant what i said!'..
After a few minutes of regret and pain, his fingers grabbed my thumb. I looked up at him shocked and happy.

'You're, you're awake!, thank you so muc-', he cut me off by a harsh push on my chest making me pull away from my hug.
He stood up tall, towering above me.
He slowly lifted his hands and pointed his index finger at me.
His eyes filling with rage and hate, jaw slowly clenching from fury.

'You, you are a cheater! I HATE YOU, I HOPE YOU DIE!,' he shouted at me, all words of hatred towards me.

'Wh-what are you s-saying, jagiya, i-im sorry,'i said, trying to calm him down.

His fierce gaze shifted to the bed table and smirked. I slowly followed his gaze only showing a dangerous weapon laying on the table, a gun.
He then quickly dashed towards it and grabbed it and pointed at me.

'You deserve to die! You're a horrible person!, i loved you with all my heart!', he said while his eyes drowned in tears.

'I'm s-sorry, c-calm down, b-baby...',
I managed to speak although with a trembling voice.

'Don't be scared, i would never hurt you, i love you.... ', he said after laughing bitterly.

I was about to speak when he slowly turned the gun towards him and looked straight at me, piercing right into my soul.

'J-jin-ah d-don't d-do i-', a loud bang rang through my ears before i even finished my sentence.

All i heard was a 'I'm sorry', before him collapsing onto the floor.

'No...no this can't be... '
'He's d-d-dead because of me...'
I went over to his figure and pulled him into a deep hug.

'J-jin- ah wake up... this is not a joke. You got me now so wake up... please?..'
'I'm so, so sorry, wake up... you can't leave me alone!... '
'How will i live without you?!.'

I couldn't breathe from crying and shouting.
I hugged his lifeless figure as my breath became shorter and shorter.
At last, my last tear dropped and i let out my last breath.
I layed beside my boyfriend and held his hands.
I looked at him...

' i will always love you...'
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'YAH! Kim namjoon! WAKE UP! HEY!'
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