My last gift

Jin's POV

All attention shifted to me, both having a blank expression.
One of namjoon's eyebrows raised, eyes widening abit.

'W-what did you s-say?' He asked breathlessly.
It was either he was happy or disappointed.

I took a deep breath and gulped.
'I said, you are mine! I love you!' I unknowingly raised my voice, my emotions overpowering me.

Namjoon eyes met the white sheet of his bedding. He let out a sound, almost a scoff.
He looked at me, in disbelief.
I swear i saw something sparkle in his eyes, making his eyes shiny.

'Y-you still love me?' He asked shortly, almost making himself not break down.

I bit my lower lip, nervous. But this time, I couldn't back down, I won't back down. I have to fight for my love.

'Yes! How is that even a question, babe? Of course, we are freaking married! For 6 years!' I shouted, veins on my neck popping out, my face reddening.

All emotions took over me as i tried hard to contain them.
A sudden smash of glass was heard hitting the ground.

Namjoon had thrown a white vase on the ground out of fury and disappointment is what it seems to be.
He cupped his perfect face, sliding his hands through his deep black locks.

'Why? WHY DO YOU STILL LOVE ME?!' He shouted back, making my heart thump mad.

For the first time, i was scared of namjoon. It seemed as if he was possessed or a beast took over him. The sweet him has died, it had gone to a place i could not follow.

I weakly got up from my wheel chair as i pulls out the needle that has dug through my veins.
Tiny drops of blood trailed behind me as i slowly walked over to him.

'SO WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO THEN?! HATE YOU?' I said, my tears escaping the cages of my eyes.

Tears filled to the brim of his eyes as his glare pierced through me.
'YES! THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN TRYING FOR! UGH!' He said, making me confused.

'WHA-What do you me-mean?' I asked, my heart actually feeling a little bit mended.

He closed his eyes and faced the ground, the drops splattering on the grey floor.
He lifted his hand and gestured me to stop.
'I-it's n-nothing.' He said, softly.

'What do you mean it's nothing! There has to be a meaning behind it!' I shouted, my feeling still not calmed down.

'UGH! FINE!I -' he paused mid-sentence, hesitating.
He took a deep breath and look into my eyes, calmer than ever.

Namjoon's POV

'It's for the sake of you, jin-ah,
미안해..(sorry).
I love you so much..'

I took a deep breath and pretending to look calm.
I looked into his eyes which were more beautiful than anything existing in this world.

'Just do it namjoon!
You're correct!'

'L-let's divorce.' I said trying to sound calm, but it came out blunt and determined.

I could hear a breaking sound from Jin. It's his heart and I'm the one behind it.
I feel so guilty but i knew this is the right choice for him.

It will not hurt him in the end.
It will not have him loving me till the end.
It will not have him in despair in the end.

I see his face becoming pale and his breath shortened and quickening.
His inner lips drying. His pupils dilating.

'W-h-a-t?' He asked in a breathy and whispering manner.

I closed my eyes and cursed at him for making me hurt him twice.
'I said, let's get a divorce!' I raised my voice at him, making him whimper in fear.

My heart ached for my manner but this has to be done, only for him, only because i love him,
Only because he is my true love.