MY SMILE IS A RIFLE

Hope.

„John...what...you're here and..." the first few seconds after you let go off each other again you're trying to find words but all you do is stumble out some weird noises until you just stand still like John does, still holding your face with his soft but cold hands. For a second, though it seems like ages to you all you see are John's beautiful dark eyes, his long hair waving with the wind and a slowly rising smile on his lips and all you hear is the sound of the ocean in the background. Finally you manage to it to speak again, not being able to take this silence anymore, though it wasn't an oppressive kind of silence, it was just a moment of beauty and uniqueness to you, finally finding yourself with the one you've been missing so much again, but all you want to do now is hearing Johns voice.

"John where the hell have you been...John..." You feel tears running down your cheeks again and you feel like just holding him forever again as he wipes them away with his thumb. " Does it matter where I have been when I'm here right now? Does it matter?" You can see in Johns face that he's as excited as you are. Now that you're meeting him outside the hospital in ' the real world ' everything feels totally different, more intense in a good way,now you will have endless possibilities to finally do what you want and be together without having to hide.

You smile into yourself out of happiness as you realize that John had finally gained some weight, which was especially to seeable in his face. He wasn't looking like a thin skeleton anymore, but like a beautiful man finding his way back to life.

" There's so much I have to tell you Jolene...so much" John smiles down at you, stroking your wet cheeks one more time and kissing you on your forehead. You wish these moments would never end, the whole situation was just perfect and you could clearly feel the emotions of you and John connecting and embracing each other. " And we have so much time now...just as much time as we want and need" You smile at him again and feel like you're almost about to faint looking into his warm and deep eyes.

Suddenly his eyes let go off you and he seems to look at something or someone coming closer right behind you. He begins to smile even wider now, taking a deep breath and looking at you again.

"Jolene...there's someone I'd have wanted you to meet sooner or later anyways...so this is -" As John wants to continue you suddenly feel a strong squeeze on your shoulder and in a slight corner of the eye you can see John's face falling into his hands as you're about to turn around, having a little shock for a second as all you see suddenly is a big tooth gap decorating an insanely wide smile. " I AM FLEA " Confused you look at the weird guy standing in front of you, wearing a garish red hoodie and short brown trousers. You turn around to John again hoping he could tell you what was actually going on, but he just looks at you and the guy who just called himself 'Flea' and grins and giggles seeing you like this and you can't help yourself and start to laugh again. And now, the guy next to you start to laugh again.

Now John stands next to 'Flea' and, attending to repeat the introduction between you and his friend. "Jolene, this is Flea...or Michael..." the guy stabs him into the side softly "FLEA!" ... " Yeah... Flea. Flea, my best friend and my favourite musician....and bass player of the Red Hot Chili Peppers" Now Flea reaches out his hand for you but before you can shake it you're just a little bit confused about John finally being able to just pronounce the name of the Chili Peppers without feeling extremely depressed...

Now you and Flea finally shake hands and he laughs at you again. "It's a pleasure Jolene. John has been talking about you nonstop the last couple of weeks, I'm really looking forward to get to know you! " You grin at John far a second and then reply to Flea " Thank you so much...Flea...I... well I'm looking forward to get to know you as well. I didn't know you were his best friend, what a weird but good accident we all meet here at the beach...I'm so happy!" You smile at both of them with one of the most honest smiles you ever had going across your face.