You know those days where you want to kill someone but at the same time you don't want to start drama so you keep your mouth shut and hands to yourself and just cry alone? Because me right now.
I love my friends, of course I do, but some times they bring me into such unnecessary drama that I just can't deal with.
Like today, for example, I noticed that Taehyung had been ignoring me and I wasn't sure why. Like, had I done something wrong? There was literally nothing I could think of.
And I tried talking to him about it but he just kept ignoring me! Whenever I saw him on campus he'd just walk in the opposite direction, whenever I'd call his name he'd put in earbuds and pretend he hadn't heard me. At this point I was beyond confused so I had decided to ask the one person who would know.
Jimin.
Jimin has been friends with Tae since they were practically in the womb. It's crazy how close those two are to each other.
So when I asked Jimin what happened to Tae, he started going off about how I'm 'such a horrible human being' and 'how could you say something about your own boyfriend like that' and I was hecka confused. Like . . . the hell?!
So I asked what he meant and he told me that Bogum (A/N I have nothing against him I just need a name) had told him that behind his back I was telling people that Tae's an 'immature little bisch who can't take a joke'. Like excuse me Mr. Bogum but I love my little tiger with my whole heart, we joke with each other all the time why the hell would I say something like that about him?
Now don't get me wrong, I'm friends with Bogum, but he just likes to start unnecessary drama whenever he gets bored. Yeah. Stupid right? Didn't think those people existed? Well they do. Why am I friends with him? Because he'll start drama if I try to not be friends with him. That's why.
And just the thought of Taehyung, my Taehyung, thinking that I had said something like that behind his back, how hurt he must feel, makes me want to cry. Scratch that, I am crying. Like why the heck would I do something like that?! I could never hurt Tae. Never in a million years. Nor would I ever think or say something like that.
So of course now I'm outside his dorm room. I know I probably look like a mess but I don't care, I need to make sure Tae is alright.
Deep breaths Jungkook. Deep breaths. Just knock on the door, keep calm.
I took in a deep breath and slowly raised my hand to knock on the door. Three taps on the hunk of wood later and many sniffles being heard from both sides of the door, it finally opened.
"Taetae . . ." I sighed, trying but failing to keep another wave of tears in as I saw how red and puffy his eyes were from crying.
He sniffed and wiped his eyes, pretending as if nothing had happened. "What do you want?" He said in a low, croaky voice, probably from all the crying.
The way his voice sounds . . . Man is it breaking my heart. How could someone lie to a person as nice and caring as him?
"Can I talk to you? Please?" I asked as he still refused to make eye contact with me.
"Why should I? You're probably just gonna tell me I'm too immature and that I'm over reacting. But you know what Jungkook? I'm not! I'm not over reacting! If I had said something like that about you behind your back, how would you feel?! It freaking hurts!" He cried as he punched his fist against his heart.
I let out a quiet sob that I just couldn't hold in. Stifling the loud cries with my hand I turned around so he wouldn't have to see me this way. I'm too weak for my own good.
"Yah . . ." Tae whispered in disbelief. "Why are you crying? What gives you the right to cry?! Is it because I found out about your true feelings?" Tae scoffed. "Unbelievable," he placed a hand on my shoulder and turned me around. I could see his eyes widen as he finally gets a good look at me for the first time since I've arrived at his room.
"Speak now or I'll just go back in my room," Taehyung said, but there wasn't as much harshness to it and it was much quieter than before.
I removed my hand from my face and tried to recollect myself, taking in a couple deep breaths to calm my breathing, knowing that I wouldn't get any words out if I didn't.
"I- I promise I d-didn't say those things about you," I said in between hiccups. Gosh was this embarrassing. "I- I could never, and I mean never, say those things about you." Tae just scoffed in response. Of course he'd expect to hear this.
"I don't know why someone would make something up like that, but I promise that I've never said or have thought anything like that. I love you with all my heart and I would nev-," I choked on a sob. "I would never," I tried again, "do something like that to you." I sniffed one last time before mustering up my courage and staring him straight in the eyes.
"Do you honestly believe, with all your heart, that I would do something like that to you? Me, your boyfriend of two years. We've never even had an actual fight before, our relationship has been perfect. Why now, of all times, would I mess something as perfect as this up?" I took a step forward and grabbed his hands in mine, I could tell he didn't know what to say so I continued speaking.
"I, Jeon Jungkook, love you, Kim Taehyung, with everything I am. You're the reason I get up every morning, the reason I smile at random times by just the thought of you; I can't think of someone as amazing as you. You've been there for the most important moments in my life and I want you to be there for the rest. So will you believe me when I say I didn't do anything of that crap that Bogum told you?"
Taehyung adjusts his grip in my hands, now holding on tighter than he was before. "Of course," he whispered. "How could I not? I'm sorry I just jumped to conclusions," he said, shaking his head in shame. "I never should've believed what that little shit told me. I know you'd never hurt me. And I love you too," he said, looking me in the eyes and taking a step closer. We were now only a couple inches apart, but the space seemed like a mile.
"And if you'll let me, I would love to spend the rest of your important moments with you," Taehyung said, smiling at me slightly. The way his eyes glistened from earlier shed tears made him look all the more beautiful from this close up. Of course I want him to be there with me. Why wouldn't I? He's my whole life, the reason for my existence.
In response, I decided that words weren't a proper way to convey my emotions, so I put my hands in his waist and pulled him in for a long, tender kiss. We don't care that people had heard our earlier argument, or that some students are passing by right now as we kiss, we just care that we're together, and there's no more problems or misunderstandings to be dealt with.
After we separated, we decided that we were in dire need of a movie night filled with many cuddles and sweet kisses.
I'll let you know one thing, whether you're fighting with a significant other, a friend, or even a family member, it's sucks to feel like you've lost a connection with someone you love. So do us all a favor and stay out of drama. If it's going to hurt someone, just don't say it. They don't deserve the pain, and neither do you.
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A/N
I just wanna say thanks for 2k reads, I really appreciate it. Even though I'm not a good writer, I feel as if this will help me grow as one. So thanks for continuing to read. Also I love comments so if you're a shy person who feels awkward about leaving comments (aka me) do it anyways! I love them all! 💜💜💜
