Stephen x Hosuh (angst oneshots)

What a Mess

Hosuhs pov~

I woke up to a car starting up. Must be Daniel leaving. I yawned and scratched my neck. Dan, Stephen, and I decided to live together. Dan would go to work early and get backaround 5pm. Stephen is still in school along with me, but we are on break. Stephen spends most if his time drinking vodka or isolating himself.
Its really starting to worry me but im sure he'll stop. At least i hope. I stood up from my bed. I had a t-shirt that was very revealing of my cuts so i slid my hoodie on.
I walked out of my room to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and threw cold water on my face to wake me up. I wasn't ready for today. Well, i don't feel like being awake right now. I sluggishly walked to the kitchen. I was about to turn the corner to get to the kitchen but i heard heavy sobs.
My heart throbbed and my gut said that Stephen need to vent to someone and he was the one crying. I trust my gut but had to see for myself. I peeked around the corner to see Stephen on his side shaking violently on the floor. I was about to run up to help him but i saw him start to gag. I quickly looked away as i heard him throwing up. Vodka reeked in the air.
"F-Fuck.." A shaiky voice cried. I heard him attempt to get up but i heard his body slam onto the floor.
"Stephen...?" i slowly walked over to him. He jumped and jerked his head towards me. He looked frightened.
"I uh please i... I...." i fumbled with words until he broke down crying. I hated seeing him so upset. My heart was practically crying at this point. I kneeled down next to him. I held his arm using my thumb to rub his arm hoping it could calm him or something.
"im sorry.." I heard Stephen choke out.
"N-no! It's okay uh just come with me.." I said helping him stand up. I helped him walk to the bathroom and left him at the toilet bowl. I walked back to the kitchen. I gasped in shock and terror. His vomit was red and more bloody than anything else.
I can't believe i hadn't seen that before. I walked to get a mop and a bucket of water. I got back and when i got close enough my heart stopped. My chest squeezed into my soul and my throat closed up. My eyes threw buckets of salty water. The substance that poured out of my eyes hit the floor in fours.
There, sat a petal in the bloody vomit. I dropped the mop and raced to stephen. I ran as fast as i could to the bathroom. I tried to slow myself but ended up falling on my side. My socks lost their grip on the wood floor. Of course. I frantically got up and saw Stephen choking and coughing. He tried to breath but i heard something catch his breath and he coughed again.
He finally coughed up a petal with blood. There was a little blood running down his lips. I slowly crawled over to him. He was leaning against the tub. He looked so weak and empty.
"p-please--....I - I'm sorry...I love you...But...You...Don-" He didn't get to finish his sentence before i kissed him. I was crying still. I was hoping that he would be all better after. I know he wouldn't but my head was thinking so rational all i could do was hope for the best.
I parted from him. He looked so upset. I thought he was mad...But.. He was guilty? He lifted his arm and put his hand on my cheek. He wiped some of my tears with his thumb.
"Im so sorry, Hosuh." He whispered to me. Tears streaming down his face. His eyes started to fall. He opened them quickly, he pulled me in for a kiss again. He held my face as we kissed and i held his arms.
His arms started to go limp and he stoped kissing me. His head slowly falling. His arms fell to the floor so fast and uncontrollably loud. His eyes were heavy and glassed over with tears still falling down. I grabbed his face and sobbed shaking violently. I put our foreheads together crying his name.
"STEPHEN P-P-PLEASE!!!" I screamed over and over, more warm tears fell off my face. I leaned his limp body on the tub again. I cried into my hands cupping my face crying louder than ever in my life. I hyperventilated and my air ways cought on every breath. My heart hurt emotionally. My head was racing. My world spun like a roller coaster. I thought of all the good times with Stephen. All the ups and down together. I screamed along with a disgusting cry afterwards. The pain came down on me so fast. Like a tide way of all my fears. I hugged myself shaking and crying.
"he's gone. He's gone. He's gone. He's gone." i repeated over and over for who knows how long. For hours on end i was crying in the bathroom. I refused to leave the body that just laid there. I loved him. He was my everything. Now that everything is gone. I slammed my fist on the floor crying again. I sobbed till my stomach hurt. I screamed and cried until my throat and lungs hurt. My head hurt and my stomach ached. My eyes and lips twitching from all the crying. My eyes felt heavy and my body was to much to carry. I curled in a ball and cried for hours.
I heard the door unlock and Dan walking in. I screamed and cried my heart raced. I heard him running fast to where i was.
"HOSUH WHATS WR-" Dan yelled but when he reached the bathroom his face melted to a horrified look. His hands made their way to his mouth. Tears built up in my eyes again, not that there wasn't anyway. Dan looked at me with pity. All that he could say was.
Im....So.....Sorry...Hosuh..