Stephen x Hosuh (angst oneshots)

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Stephens pov~

As i walked through the door and saw Hosuh. He had a suitcase with him and a bag. It looked as if he was walking out but i got in the way. When he saw me he started to cry. He dropped his luggage and covered his mouth. I ran over to him and gave him a tight embrace. He cried onto my shoulder for a while. I too, started to tear up.
Why did you try to leave?
I thought it'd be easier on you guys.
What would you have done when you left?
He looked away with more tears spilling out. I felt my body trembling as i realized what he would have done. I hugged him and cried. I couldn't loose him. I can't let death and sorrow take my friend... Love away from me. He would have waited for the right moment to leave, then probably jump off a bridge or a chair with a necklace that is considered to be a noose, for lack of better words i cant even picture that without tearing up, honesty i don't even want to picture it.
If you must wait
Wait for them here in my arms as i shake.

I was awoken by Hosuh hugging me and weeping. I knew it was Hosuh because Daniel had left to see his mother for the last time before she died of cancer. I rubbed my eyes and turned over to look at him. He was balling his eyes out. I hugged him, of course. I rubbed his back as an attempt to comfort him. I exhaled a long breath of sorrow.
Hey, Hosuh?
Y-yeah?
You can come in here when ever you'd like when you're upset.
T-thankyou stephen.
Hosuh cried into my chest hugging me tightly as if he let go just a little bit he would loose me, or his consciousness. He soon calmed down and fell asleep in my arms. Honestly i don't blame him. From all the crying and bottled up feelings would make me tired too. Soon, i too did fall asleep. I stayed up a little later, for i thought he would wake up in a cold sweat and cry or just leave again.
If you must weep
Do it right here in my bed as i sleep.

I was on the couch dozing off until i heard a small thud to the right of me. It sounded as if someone was outside throwing rocks or leaning something up against the house. I got up and trudged to the window. I saw a latter. I worried that Hosuh was planning to jump. I ran to the door and swung it open i closed it softly as i realized that he wasn't planning on doing that. He was crying and hyperventilating. I felt sorrow and my stomach twist as i heard him mourn.
Im s-so s-s-sorry Joey-
It was all broken up as he cried and breathed quickly trying to get his words out. I stayed close to the walls of the house, not to scare him or make him more upset.
I-i-i-m s-s-o s-so-r-r-y
His cry was quiet but drawn out. Because i was dumb and scared it took me a bit to realize his brother had died. It may have been an car accident or murder maybe even suicide. But I doubt it was the last one. Even now the last one makes no sense but total sense at the same time. The night sky was beautiful. I can still see it now. The crescent of the moon lit the earth as the sun reflected off the moon. The stars had twinkled so bright and hopefully.
If you must mourn my love
Mourn with the moon and the stars up above.
I climbed the latter slowly. As i reached the top i saw Hosuh hugging his knees crying. I crept my way over to him. I set myself down next to him. I wrapped my arm around him and pulled him closer. I soon started to mourn too. Joey was such a good person. What did he do to deserve this? Life is unfair and heartbreaking i guess. Life really does fucking suck.
If you must mourn
Don't do it alone.

Hosuh tried to leave again. Every step he took felt like lava or fire hitting me. As he reached for the door knob i ran over to him and embraced him. I cried and pulled him back away from the door.
Please. S-stay.
..
P-please
I pleaded with him. I can't loose him. I love him Too much. Why would he want to leave Dan and I. Why now?
If you must leave
Leave as though fire burns under your feet.

Hosuh looked at me, tears falling down his face and more tears brimming up. He opened his mouth trying to say something but he held his mouth and cried he sank to the floor holding his stomach. I pulled him onto my lap and hugged him.
Im sorry.
Hosuh. Please, don't be.
I just can't take this life much longer.
W-what?
Stephen, the world, like, everything. It's too heavy for me to carry.
H-Hosuh. I...
Don't be. It's my fault anyway.
The words that had spilt from his mouth felt like needles and thorns. His words, his word choice. It hurt. It really did and still does.
If you must speak
Speak every word as though it were unique.