invisible ➳ hemmings au

epilogue

august 20th 2016

dear tals,

i'm writing you a letter because my therapist told me to. i've been going to therapy for over a year now. and you've been gone for two. i'm such a dick, talia. i should have asked you first. i should have believed you.

i wished i could have gone back to that night. there are so many things i would like to say to you. i hope you can read this from up there because this letter i'm writing you are all the things i didn't say when you were still here.

i'm sorry. i was stupid enough to believe you wouldn't do something to yourself. i wish i could have made you stay, tals. i wish i could have. i'm the one to blame for all of this. i was too late.

i wished someone would wake me up from this bad dream and when i wake up, i'll see you smiling again.

i love you so much. i never stopped loving you, if we're being honest here. even though, i went out with the prettiest girls that were introduced to me, you will still be the most beautiful girl in the entire world. next to my mom, of course, haha.

i hope i can hear your laughter. even when, you laugh like a pig and snort, it will still be one of the things that i love about you.

i miss you and i miss your smile. i would give up everything in the entire world just to see you again.

i hope you'll be able to forgive me for all the things i've done. because, i haven't. i'm still the one to blame for everything. it's my fault how your parents got divorced and how almost everyone in your entire family hates me because, it was my fault. i blame myself for everything. although ellie, on the other hand, seems to have forgiven me. she and i talk every now and then and i see yourself in her. it actually feels pretty good until, she reminds me of you so much that i end up yelling at her and crying. she's used to it. she completely understands the pain of losing someone you love so much. after my breakdowns, we talk about you again and reminisce about the times before with you and somehow, it brings a smile to my face.

we will be together, soon.

love always, luke x

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luke was pleased with what he had written. he folded it in half and set it on his desk. he smiled upon looking at a picture of him and talia. he also had finished sending text messages to his family and friends, apologizing because he had been a dick for the past two years. his phone was blowing up with text messages and calls. he stared at it for minute wishing it would stop ringing so it could be quiet and peaceful. he opened his drawer and pulled out a shiny black pistol and set it on the table before closing the drawer and staring at the gun that he placed on his desk. he could hear footsteps up the stairs and his best friends' voices. his friends were knocking on the door but, it was actually more of like banging. 'we'll be together again.' he thought to himsef and picked up the black deadly thing on his desk and smiled.

a few minutes later, there was a loud sound heard throughout the neighborhood following, the sound of people yelling.

the only thing that could be heard in the neighborhood was people screaming and the sirens coming from afar.

so that's it.

sorry this thing sucked and bc she was dead but i've been planning that entire thing even before i wrote the chapters. i'm also sorry for the cliffhanger. but im pretty sure you would get it or not bc i dont know myself if luke shot himself or not. i'm actually still deciding loool. if i'm nice or i get inspired i might write sth like closure for you guys and all.

please read my new story called handcuffed!!!! it's a michael one this time lolz

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