"making plans to rule the world, you were more than i deserved"
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1 year ago
12:51am
there's a lot of places i imagined ethan was talking about when he said 'adventure', but i never imagined he would just drive us around for forty-five minutes while we talked about everything that came to our minds. i'm not awkward at all, so talking to him about whatever came to mind was super easy. it was actually him that had the most trouble up until he found a topic he was passionate about.
"do you think i could rule the world one day?" he asks seriously. i watch as he turns his head to glance at me for a second before turning his head back to face the road. both of his hands are tightly holding onto the wheel so that his knuckles turn white, and i can tell that he's still nervous. i don't understand what happened to his confidence that he had an hour ago, but i don't really mind. i think it's cute that he's shy, and it's funny to me he can be so confident and so timid at the same time.
i shrug my shoulders without a thought. "definitely not alone, but i think the both us of could do it."
"okay, but what would happen if we did rule the world together? i bet we have completely different plans." his hands are both relaxed now, one of them holding loosely on the bottom of the wheel in his lap. the other is cupping his chin in thought and i have to stop myself from staring at him for too long.
i can't help but stare at him because he is so different than i thought he would be. when i first looked at him i thought he would be a jackass that only cares about himself, but i found out he's different than that. he is actually super kind, he's funnier than anyone i've ever met, and he is so positive that it's contagious. i was so upset when my roommate ditched me to fuck her boyfriend, but right now i don't even care.
"well," i start off with an unsure tone. it seems that he's thought this out a lot more than i have, and i just started to think about what it would be like to rule the world. "i would start off with world peace--"
"what the fuck, piper!" he yells loudly, laughing even louder. "that's boring. when i think about ruling the world, i think about what it would be like to see everyone bowing down at my feet because i give them an unnecessary amount of money. i think about what it would feel like giving homeless people homes and how amazing it would be to find a cure to cancer. world peace is important, but not the first thing on the list for me."
my eyes are wide when i watch the way he talks about something he's actually put thought into. his hands fly around and there's this huge smile on his face after yelling at me. i know he isn't being serious about this because he's a twenty year old almost junior at san francisco state, but i find myself excited to learn about the things he actually is passionate about.
"to answer your previous question, i think you could rule the world one day." i smile at him.
his eyes widen and he smiles widely, "thank you for lying to me to make me feel better."
seeing the way he reacts to what i previously said makes me happy. the way his smile literally makes me want to smile is surprising, but i love the feeling he brings me anyway. he makes me feel like i don't need to care about anything and that i'm allowed to be happy no matter what may happen.
i almost defend myself because i don't want him thinking i lied to him, but am interrupted when he turns into a parking lot. there is no other car in sight since it's one in the morning and a friday night, so everyone is either sleeping or at a random party.
he puts the car in park and turns to look at me. the same smile from before is on his face, but it looks like he's much more excited than he was before. pulling the keys from the ignition, he says three words that make me understand why he's so excited.
"let's go swimming."
