Love & Pain: Rain

Falling.

Standing in the edge,
My hair is pushed in all directions,
My breathing is -somehow- calm.

My hands are cold,
My lips are not trembling.
I'm not afraid.

Night is windy and cold,
Unknown city.
Unknown people.

I'm standing a hundred floors from the ground,
And I am not afraid.

No parachute,
Once I throw myself,
It'll be the end of me.
The end of my memories,
End of my voice,
End of my presence in this world,
I'll be oblivious.

I wonder how I got here.

No one to stop me,
No one to warn me.

The cold floor is calling me,
Nor heaven or hell is waiting for me.

I am nothing.
I'll be nothing.
Just another atom that has deceased.
Maybe I'll become a star in a far unknown galaxy,
Or even a citizen of an undiscovered planet.

Wherever I'll be,
I'm sure I'll still have him in my memory.

Standing in here,
Just by myself,
Not being afraid, not caring for anything.
Blindly and ready to fall,
Reminds me of being in love.

Being in love with him.

I was there,
Watching you smile; being yourself,
I smiled too, cause I knew,
I was falling,
Blindly falling for you,
Not caring if I got to lose anything,
Even myself, just to have you.

And this building,
Seems so tall.

That love I had for you,
Reminds me of this, being standing in here.

As I take one more breathe,
I turn around,
And throw myslef to the unknown,
Looking at the sky.

For a moment,
Everything's quiet,
Even my mind has been shut.

For a split second I think to myself:
"Will it hurt?"

And then everything goes black.