Supernatural BSM

Castiel- Sister Maria

1st Person Pov

          I've been Dating Cas for quite some time now. My brothers found out not too long ago when they saw me kissing him. AT first they were mad at me for not checking if it was okay with them. But hey, I'm 22. I can do whatever the hell I want. I was sitting at the map table reading a book. I got to thinking recently. Ever since my brothers found out about me and Cas... they've almost seem... distant from me. They act as if I don't exist anymore. Along with that, a few days ago, Cas became human. He's not been himself ever since he was stripped from his essence. Or however you want to put it. This all just came and hit me all at once, and I don't think I can handle any of it.

          I got lost in my own thoughts and I didn't hear Cas walk into the bunker. "Hey Maria. How are you today?" He said as he walked over and kissing the top of my head. "I've been better." I said in an almost depressed tone.  "What's wrong? Is everything okay?" "No actually... I'm not okay." I said placing my book down and looking at him. My eyes felt as if I was about to cry any second. Castiel sat down beside me, and he looked concerned. More than that actually, he looked anxious about what I had to say.

          "Cas, ever since my brothers found out about us... they just seem disappointed in me. And then you became human and started to become distant from me. I mean do you still love me anymore?" It took him a second to respond. But when he did... I don't think it's what I needed to hear. "Maria, you know I love you with everything in me. When I was an angel., you were the first to show me what love feels like. You made me more than what I thought I was. And-" "Cas please stop. I know I mean the world to you; you mean the world to me as well. But-" he cut me off. "But what?" He looked as if he knew exactly what was coming next. "Cas I just don't think the time is right for us. I mean when we first started going out, it was like I was on top of the world and nothing could bring me down. But after my brothers found out that we were dating... I fell so far until I hit the ground. And maybe, we just weren't meant to be together. I know you always say that no matter what our love will get us through it but I just can't say that our love will get us through this time." Tears were making their way out of my eyes. I was sniffling in between my words.

          "Maria... What are you saying?" Cas said as he waited in anticipation for my answer. I wiped my tears but they just kept coming. "Cas-" I was interrupted with a soft sob. "I can't. I don't think the time is right. I can't be with someone that I don't deserve; especially since my brothers disapprove of us being together."

3rd Person Pov

          The ex-angel then got up and started walking towards the door. Maria got up and turned to him. "Cas wait. Please." But he didn't listen. He kept walking until the door closed to the bunker... and his heart. Maria threw her hand over her mouth and slowly sank to the floor. She cried like a baby missing its mama. Soft sobs left her. She just couldn't handle the pain of just ruining the one good thing she had in her life. "Cas please!" She cried over and over. Just hoping the pain within her would end. Her heart felt as if it was ripped from her in one swift motion. It was like she couldn't breathe without him.. but she had too. It's the kind of ending one doesn't really wanna see. But its tragedy and it'll only bring her down. "I'm sorry.. I'm sorry... I'm sorry."

Someone will love you. Someone will love you. Someone will love you. But someone isn't me.    
                                            -Halsey