Supernatural BSM

I Am Damaged Part 2- Sister Y/N

A/N: quick note, I apologise if it is bad, I couldn't sleep last night so I wrote this real quick. Part 3 will be better, I promise. (Also, make sure you scroll till the end of the chapter, the blank space is there for a reason)

Yours truly,
Whore.with.wings

3rd Person Pov

  It was a few days after Y/N had exchanged words with Dean, and things have been almost too quiet. Sam and Dean rarely saw Y/N come out of the room, and if they did, she didn't say a word to them. It was almost as if a new found cold had rested its hands on the bunker and didn't let go. Things weren't the same, though it wasn't like it was okay before Dean and Y/N had argued, but it was better than the silence.

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3rd Person Pov

  It was an extremely quiet day at the bunker, and although 'normal' wasn't really the right word for a Winchester family day, this day was anything but their average day. Y/N was still barricaded in her room and her two brothers were sitting in the map room trying to decide on what next step they should take.

  "Dean I'm telling you, there's really nothing that I can say, she's not upset with me, she's not angry at me. If anything I can encourage her to talk to you but it's you that has to make the effort to." Sam said has he sat facing his brother. "You don't think I know that, Sam? It's easy for you to say but you didn't see her face. She was more than sad, and she was more than afraid of me... she was petrified. I mean come on, we're supposed to protect her from the world, not protect her from us." The two had looked around in silence. For a moment, it almost seemed as if nothing worse could happen to their lives, that is before both their phones light up with a single text from Cas showing.

Get to Y/N's room now.

  Both had read the five word message and instantly ran to the hall. That's where they saw an angel banishing symbol and Y/N's locked door.

Dean's Pov

  When I rush to the hall where Y/N's room was, I was met with a red symbol that was all too familiar. Sam has rushed to the door, turning the knob discovering it locked. "Y/N, baby open the door." Sam has said slightly panicked; trying to stay calm but failing. "Leave me alone Sam." I could hear Y/N's muffled voice coming from behind the door, it was scared and shaking. "Y/N please, open the door. Whatever is going on we can work through it, okay? We can talk, we can fix things, okay? We don't have to leave them broken." Sam had said, desperately trying to plead with our younger sister.

  I pushed Sam aside slight, "Y/N/N I know the other day was bad. I know I fucked up, and I know I'm the last person you want to see to but please, open the door and we can go back to being a family, we are all we have left. Don't do something that you'll regret." I pleaded in a heavy hearted tone. "I said leave me alone! There's nothing left to save! There's nothing left for there to be fixed!" Y/N's burning voice spoke.

  I refused to let this be the way things ended. I refused to let Y/N accept this fate. I stood back slightly and began to kick the door, attempting to break its hold from the walls, wanting to break its hold on keeping us separated from our little girl. One, two, three... in almost one swift motion, it was open, and Sam and I, our gazes met a broken girl, scared of the world.

Y/N's Pov

  I stand in my room, looking at my brothers. My face, wet and stained with tears. One hand in a fist, and the other a gun, with a finger on the trigger. "Y/N-" "Go. Please. Because looking at you two while I do this is only going to make things a lot harder." I said, trying to keep my voice stable enough for them to understand.

  "I am damaged, far to damaged. But you're not beyond repair. Stick around here...make things better. Cause Dean... it's beat me, fair and square." More tears had managed to slip past my cheeks, but I didn't care. I cocked the gun, just watching them, not wanting to turn my back and them stop me. "Please stand back now, little further, don't know what this thing will do. Hope you'll miss me, I'd wish Cas kisses me, but he knows that I'll always love him. I'll trade my life for yours... because I know if I don't, I'll eventually snap and kill us all. But once I disappear, clean up the mess in here."

  More tears managed to leave my eyes and down my face. As I looked at my older for the last time. "Our love is god....our love is god....our love is god... our love is god." I braced myself, tucking my chin to my chest, barrel resting at my temple.

"Say hi to god."

*bang*

Blood splattered.... but it wasn't my own.